1 00:00:11,210 --> 00:00:18,210 ReEncoded By Dr.XJ | PSA PSArips.com 2 00:00:45,211 --> 00:00:48,173 [Clay] I thought a long, long time about what to say today. 3 00:00:48,965 --> 00:00:52,177 How to pay tribute, but also tell the truth. 4 00:00:54,637 --> 00:01:00,268 It truly hurts me to think that my actions have caused anyone emotional distress. 5 00:01:01,394 --> 00:01:04,147 When I think of the pain that I may have caused, I-I just... 6 00:01:05,398 --> 00:01:08,985 Well, I feel awful. Every day, I wish that I could go back in time. 7 00:01:11,321 --> 00:01:15,742 I was used to a certain culture of partying and hookups, 8 00:01:16,618 --> 00:01:19,621 and many of us never questioned it, but it is time to question it. 9 00:01:19,704 --> 00:01:22,373 And I know that I need to be the one to set an example. 10 00:01:23,249 --> 00:01:25,585 I'm... I'm trying every day to be a better man, 11 00:01:25,668 --> 00:01:28,880 to be the man that my parents raised me to be. 12 00:01:29,798 --> 00:01:32,300 And to be a positive influence at Liberty High. 13 00:01:33,426 --> 00:01:36,846 It is my sincerest hope that you will allow me to do so. 14 00:01:38,431 --> 00:01:39,349 Thank you, sir. 15 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:43,603 -Does the county accept the allocution? -We do, Your Honor. 16 00:01:43,770 --> 00:01:44,687 Prior to sentencing, 17 00:01:44,771 --> 00:01:47,774 the victim would like to exercise her right to make her own statement. 18 00:01:48,191 --> 00:01:49,192 Proceed. 19 00:01:49,943 --> 00:01:50,985 [Clay] I have to admit, 20 00:01:51,361 --> 00:01:54,197 when I was asked to speak today, I didn't want to. 21 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:57,075 To stand up in front of all these people. 22 00:01:58,409 --> 00:01:59,953 But it's what Hannah deserves. 23 00:02:01,955 --> 00:02:05,041 Your Honor, thank you for this opportunity to address the court. 24 00:02:05,875 --> 00:02:08,128 If it's all right, for the first part of my statement, 25 00:02:08,211 --> 00:02:10,296 I'd like to address the defendant directly. 26 00:02:10,755 --> 00:02:12,340 -[judge] Go right ahead. -Why not? 27 00:02:14,509 --> 00:02:17,345 The first weekend in September, my parents were out of town 28 00:02:17,679 --> 00:02:19,973 and my little brothers were at their grandparents'. 29 00:02:21,641 --> 00:02:23,226 I wanted to host a party 30 00:02:24,435 --> 00:02:27,355 like I thought a popular cheerleader should. 31 00:02:31,151 --> 00:02:32,360 My boyfriend was there. 32 00:02:33,528 --> 00:02:34,946 Your friend Justin. 33 00:02:38,199 --> 00:02:39,409 We had been drinking. 34 00:02:43,371 --> 00:02:45,248 We decided to go up to my room. 35 00:02:50,128 --> 00:02:53,131 I remember making out with him. 36 00:02:57,969 --> 00:02:58,928 And then I... 37 00:03:00,221 --> 00:03:01,222 [inhales] 38 00:03:02,432 --> 00:03:06,394 And then I started to fall asleep or... or pass out. 39 00:03:12,775 --> 00:03:16,279 I just... I remember thinking 40 00:03:16,362 --> 00:03:19,282 that I just needed to close my eyes for a few minutes. 41 00:03:25,371 --> 00:03:26,205 Then he... 42 00:03:29,375 --> 00:03:30,960 Then he walked out of the room. 43 00:03:31,669 --> 00:03:35,715 And then I remember waking up to you pulling off my underwear. 44 00:03:40,220 --> 00:03:43,723 I remember feeling you push yourself inside of me. 45 00:03:45,225 --> 00:03:48,394 [sniffles] I may not remember all of the details, 46 00:03:48,478 --> 00:03:51,314 but I will never forget the sheer terror 47 00:03:51,731 --> 00:03:54,108 of feeling your weight on top of me, 48 00:03:56,819 --> 00:03:58,571 of not being able to breathe. 49 00:04:05,703 --> 00:04:08,831 When I opened my eyes, I was alone in the hot tub with him, 50 00:04:09,123 --> 00:04:10,500 and there was... 51 00:04:12,669 --> 00:04:15,964 The way he looked at me, there was something in his eyes. 52 00:04:17,507 --> 00:04:18,508 And I was afraid. 53 00:04:19,634 --> 00:04:22,929 I wanted to slow down, but he told me not to be a tease. 54 00:04:24,013 --> 00:04:25,723 And he pushed me down on the couch 55 00:04:26,933 --> 00:04:28,893 and said he was glad I had waited for him. 56 00:04:29,894 --> 00:04:32,730 And then he pulled off my jeans and then my underwear. 57 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:35,984 And he said that if I showed my body better, 58 00:04:36,401 --> 00:04:38,152 people wouldn't think I was a lesbian. 59 00:04:39,070 --> 00:04:40,405 He used a different word. 60 00:04:40,863 --> 00:04:43,992 And then he grabbed me on the inside of my thigh. 61 00:04:44,492 --> 00:04:47,954 At that moment, we were left alone, and he picked me up. 62 00:04:48,037 --> 00:04:52,875 He just picked me up and carried me behind the fence. 63 00:04:53,668 --> 00:04:56,754 And he lay down on top of me and started to take my pants off. 64 00:04:57,255 --> 00:04:58,715 I fought and I fought, 65 00:04:59,090 --> 00:05:02,468 but he was 18 and I was 12. 66 00:05:03,469 --> 00:05:05,722 I found out later this guard had a reputation. 67 00:05:06,180 --> 00:05:07,974 When he got up from my bed and left, 68 00:05:08,391 --> 00:05:11,811 my roommate rolled over and told me it happened to most of the girls. 69 00:05:12,770 --> 00:05:14,105 I was a second-year associate. 70 00:05:14,522 --> 00:05:17,734 He invited me to a strategy meeting in his hotel room. 71 00:05:18,735 --> 00:05:20,862 He answered the door in his bathrobe. 72 00:05:21,654 --> 00:05:23,865 I spent the evening insisting we work on the case. 73 00:05:25,033 --> 00:05:26,826 At the end of that year, I was let go. 74 00:05:26,909 --> 00:05:31,831 I had been babysitting for this family for, I guess, two years. 75 00:05:32,123 --> 00:05:33,374 He was my youth pastor. 76 00:05:33,750 --> 00:05:34,709 My second cousin. 77 00:05:35,043 --> 00:05:38,254 Your Honor, when we leave this courtroom, 78 00:05:39,505 --> 00:05:41,090 Bryce Walker gets to leave 79 00:05:41,674 --> 00:05:44,635 convinced that he chose the wrong girl to have sex with. 80 00:05:45,470 --> 00:05:48,681 I get to leave constantly looking over my shoulder 81 00:05:48,765 --> 00:05:51,225 for monsters dressed up as the popular kid, 82 00:05:52,393 --> 00:05:55,897 constantly on edge and assuming the worst in every boy. 83 00:05:56,314 --> 00:06:00,193 The sentence you decide today can tell Bryce Walker what he did was wrong. 84 00:06:00,401 --> 00:06:05,990 It can say that to every boy, every man who behaves like he does. 85 00:06:07,784 --> 00:06:11,662 And it can say to victims like me that our story matters. 86 00:06:14,624 --> 00:06:15,500 Thank you. 87 00:06:21,464 --> 00:06:25,176 Prosecution has put forth a sentencing recommendation. 88 00:06:25,843 --> 00:06:27,970 Does the defense have anything to contribute? 89 00:06:28,262 --> 00:06:32,433 Your Honor, this is a terribly unfortunate event. 90 00:06:33,392 --> 00:06:35,686 And two young lives have been changed forever. 91 00:06:36,521 --> 00:06:39,315 Bryce has lost all his scholarship offers. 92 00:06:39,816 --> 00:06:41,400 The school district has cancelled 93 00:06:41,484 --> 00:06:43,611 what might well have been a championship season. 94 00:06:44,570 --> 00:06:46,906 There is regret on all sides. 95 00:06:46,989 --> 00:06:50,576 We urge the court to let these two young people start rebuilding 96 00:06:50,743 --> 00:06:52,078 and return to their lives. 97 00:06:53,287 --> 00:06:54,831 This is a tragedy all around. 98 00:06:55,581 --> 00:06:58,668 As a judge, it's my role to look at both sides. 99 00:06:58,751 --> 00:07:02,839 And California law requires every judge to consider rehabilitation 100 00:07:03,089 --> 00:07:05,133 and probation for first-time offenders. 101 00:07:05,299 --> 00:07:07,426 I'd like to see these two young people 102 00:07:07,510 --> 00:07:10,430 look hard at their lives and their choices. 103 00:07:10,763 --> 00:07:13,015 But I don't want to do any further damage. 104 00:07:13,683 --> 00:07:14,642 Mr. Walker... 105 00:07:18,062 --> 00:07:20,189 I expect you to walk the straight and narrow. 106 00:07:20,857 --> 00:07:23,776 I'm sentencing you to three months probation. So ordered. 107 00:07:23,860 --> 00:07:26,487 -[gavel pounds] -Your Honor, three months probation? 108 00:07:26,821 --> 00:07:28,489 -[judge] That's all. -[gavel pounds] 109 00:07:29,699 --> 00:07:32,076 [Clay] I'm angry. I'm sad. 110 00:07:32,743 --> 00:07:35,746 And I still have no idea how what happened happened. 111 00:07:36,914 --> 00:07:40,293 Talk to me about the sex doll that was found at Ms. Davis' home. 112 00:07:41,919 --> 00:07:45,256 Or the dead rat that was inside Mr. Dempsey's locker. 113 00:07:46,090 --> 00:07:48,092 The vandalism to Mr. Padilla's car. 114 00:07:49,177 --> 00:07:50,094 This is bullshit. 115 00:07:50,178 --> 00:07:52,221 What about the shooting target you sent my son? 116 00:07:53,473 --> 00:07:54,557 I didn't do any of that. 117 00:07:54,640 --> 00:07:57,393 We have several kids who say he intimidated witnesses, 118 00:07:57,894 --> 00:07:59,604 engaged in felony vandalism. 119 00:07:59,687 --> 00:08:02,607 Everyone's saying all kinds of shit, but it's not true. 120 00:08:03,149 --> 00:08:04,025 Where's the gun? 121 00:08:05,735 --> 00:08:07,612 I never touched a gun in my life. 122 00:08:08,613 --> 00:08:12,825 Your Honor, Bryce Walker was released on bail within hours of his arrest, 123 00:08:12,909 --> 00:08:16,746 and Justin has been stranded in juvenile detention for almost a month. 124 00:08:16,829 --> 00:08:18,789 [judge] I'm aware of the timeline. 125 00:08:18,873 --> 00:08:21,083 The related case is complete as of today. 126 00:08:21,375 --> 00:08:23,878 Justin's plea is in, the paperwork is done. 127 00:08:23,961 --> 00:08:28,299 Understood, Counselor, but as a minor, he has to be released into custody. 128 00:08:28,382 --> 00:08:31,135 We have been searching for Amber Foley for weeks, Your Honor. 129 00:08:31,219 --> 00:08:34,639 -She's nowhere to be found. -Keep looking. Until then, he's remanded. 130 00:08:35,806 --> 00:08:36,641 Bailiff? 131 00:08:40,144 --> 00:08:40,978 [door opens] 132 00:08:41,646 --> 00:08:43,648 Hang on, Justin. We're working on it. 133 00:08:44,106 --> 00:08:45,066 I know. Thank you. 134 00:08:45,399 --> 00:08:48,027 [Clay] We're still learning all the ways we've been changed. 135 00:08:49,028 --> 00:08:50,488 All the things we've lost. 136 00:08:52,532 --> 00:08:54,075 I'm so fucking sorry. 137 00:08:57,495 --> 00:08:58,579 It's insane. 138 00:09:02,500 --> 00:09:06,212 But somehow I still feel stronger. 139 00:09:11,300 --> 00:09:12,134 [door closes] 140 00:09:13,761 --> 00:09:14,845 Wait, where's Justin? 141 00:09:15,471 --> 00:09:19,183 They'll only release him to a guardian, and the judge won't move on it. 142 00:09:19,725 --> 00:09:22,645 We've filed emergency papers, but it's a 24-hour minimum. 143 00:09:22,728 --> 00:09:24,939 I'll take the petition to Purdy. He owes us. 144 00:09:25,022 --> 00:09:27,108 Do you wanna start on the order for the school? 145 00:09:27,441 --> 00:09:28,276 Yeah. 146 00:09:28,651 --> 00:09:32,572 We're asking for a court order to force the school to protect you. 147 00:09:33,322 --> 00:09:34,490 To keep him away from you. 148 00:09:35,199 --> 00:09:36,033 Thank you. 149 00:09:37,076 --> 00:09:40,413 Mom, is your firm... I mean, are they cool with this? 150 00:09:40,496 --> 00:09:44,917 I've left the firm... to work with Dennis on cases like this. 151 00:09:45,501 --> 00:09:46,335 Oh, that's... 152 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:49,422 That's cool. 153 00:09:51,424 --> 00:09:52,717 [Bryce sighs] 154 00:09:55,136 --> 00:09:58,222 [Clay] We're just starting to figure out how to go on with our lives. 155 00:10:08,482 --> 00:10:10,943 Coach said we could leave our lockers till the end of the year. 156 00:10:11,027 --> 00:10:13,696 I'm transferring. To Hillcrest. 157 00:10:14,113 --> 00:10:16,657 Hillcrest? You got the grades for that? 158 00:10:17,325 --> 00:10:18,409 Not exactly. 159 00:10:19,076 --> 00:10:21,662 Well, private schools need fields, too, I guess. 160 00:10:23,539 --> 00:10:27,460 Yeah. And uniforms and all that shit. 161 00:10:28,919 --> 00:10:30,588 -[bag zips] -Speaking of which... 162 00:10:33,090 --> 00:10:36,093 not all of my credits transferred, so I'll be going in as a junior. 163 00:10:36,427 --> 00:10:38,554 Which means I'll see you on the field this fall. 164 00:10:39,472 --> 00:10:42,975 -They're letting you play football? -That's right. See you at the dance. 165 00:10:44,352 --> 00:10:45,186 Wait. 166 00:10:47,063 --> 00:10:50,024 So, you and Chloe? 167 00:10:50,775 --> 00:10:52,151 Yeah. Loyalty. 168 00:10:53,986 --> 00:10:55,112 It's a thing, huh? 169 00:10:57,740 --> 00:10:59,158 Take care of yourself, Zachy. 170 00:11:01,952 --> 00:11:05,039 [Clay] I say "go on" and not "move on" because in some ways... 171 00:11:05,539 --> 00:11:08,000 we'll never completely move on from what happened. 172 00:11:08,668 --> 00:11:11,253 Your meeting with the district psychologist went well 173 00:11:11,587 --> 00:11:14,131 and the reports from your diversion program are excellent. 174 00:11:14,215 --> 00:11:15,383 It was a good program. 175 00:11:16,050 --> 00:11:16,884 Tell me why. 176 00:11:18,010 --> 00:11:20,846 Um, well, at first, it was very difficult. 177 00:11:20,930 --> 00:11:23,099 You know, the long hikes and the camping. 178 00:11:23,682 --> 00:11:24,975 But after a few days, 179 00:11:25,726 --> 00:11:29,105 with everything else stripped away, you're just left to your thoughts and... 180 00:11:30,523 --> 00:11:31,482 you learn things. 181 00:11:32,191 --> 00:11:33,234 And what did you learn? 182 00:11:33,818 --> 00:11:35,986 That I can choose how I respond to things. 183 00:11:36,570 --> 00:11:39,532 That even if I am feeling angry, or lonely, or whatever, 184 00:11:39,615 --> 00:11:41,409 that I'm in control of my own actions. 185 00:11:42,076 --> 00:11:46,831 I can't control what other people do, but I can control my response. 186 00:11:46,914 --> 00:11:50,793 Do you think you're ready to come back? Do you think things will be different? 187 00:11:51,877 --> 00:11:52,795 Yeah, I think so. 188 00:11:54,213 --> 00:11:55,047 I'm ready. 189 00:11:58,217 --> 00:12:02,638 Principal Bolan is concerned that we keep a very close eye on you. 190 00:12:03,848 --> 00:12:04,765 I understand. 191 00:12:06,058 --> 00:12:09,270 And your return won't be easy. 192 00:12:10,229 --> 00:12:11,063 No, I know. 193 00:12:13,274 --> 00:12:15,109 [chatter] 194 00:12:17,611 --> 00:12:18,446 Hey. 195 00:12:20,197 --> 00:12:22,366 Hi! Hi. [giggles] 196 00:12:22,616 --> 00:12:23,451 Hey. 197 00:12:24,076 --> 00:12:25,327 -You're back! -I am. 198 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:27,746 -Wow. You look good. -Thanks. 199 00:12:27,830 --> 00:12:30,416 Yeah, apparently, natural sunlight and physical exercise 200 00:12:30,499 --> 00:12:32,168 are, like, good for us or something. 201 00:12:32,251 --> 00:12:33,752 -Something. [chuckles] -Something. 202 00:12:33,836 --> 00:12:36,505 The good news is that I'm back in time for the Spring Fling. 203 00:12:36,755 --> 00:12:40,092 And I was determined to make it back in time to take you. 204 00:12:40,676 --> 00:12:43,012 -Oh. -I mean, or we could just blow it off. 205 00:12:43,095 --> 00:12:45,431 -We could do something else. -Yeah, no, I mean... 206 00:12:46,307 --> 00:12:49,894 I'm-I'm going to the dance, uh, with Eric. 207 00:12:51,437 --> 00:12:52,396 Okay. Oh. 208 00:12:53,314 --> 00:12:54,148 -Cool. -Yeah. 209 00:12:54,231 --> 00:12:57,067 We're kinda dating. Just for, like, a few weeks now. 210 00:12:57,443 --> 00:13:00,821 Yeah, cool. You know, he's... Eric's a good guy, so... 211 00:13:01,655 --> 00:13:02,615 Yeah, that's cool. 212 00:13:02,698 --> 00:13:03,866 -[school bell rings] -Yeah. 213 00:13:03,949 --> 00:13:05,993 -Shoot. I gotta run. -Yeah, me, too. 214 00:13:06,785 --> 00:13:08,037 I'm really glad you're back. 215 00:13:08,496 --> 00:13:09,330 Thanks. 216 00:13:09,788 --> 00:13:10,664 Glad to be back. 217 00:13:12,291 --> 00:13:13,125 -Bye. -Bye. 218 00:13:15,753 --> 00:13:16,587 What's up, man? 219 00:13:19,924 --> 00:13:21,842 [Clay] And I don't say "get back to normal" 220 00:13:22,718 --> 00:13:24,595 because life will never be normal again. 221 00:13:27,181 --> 00:13:31,644 Before we start, I am distrustful of religion. 222 00:13:32,478 --> 00:13:35,773 Okay. The service can be whatever you want it to be. 223 00:13:35,856 --> 00:13:39,818 It's just... my mother always told us we should abide, 224 00:13:40,861 --> 00:13:42,947 and have faith, accept what's coming to us. 225 00:13:43,030 --> 00:13:45,950 And I think that teaches people to be passive. 226 00:13:46,534 --> 00:13:49,703 I think abiding and acceptance is bullshit. 227 00:13:50,538 --> 00:13:53,123 -Excuse my language. -I don't disagree. 228 00:13:55,084 --> 00:13:56,001 So tell me, 229 00:13:56,377 --> 00:14:00,506 w-why choose a church for Hannah's service? 230 00:14:01,048 --> 00:14:04,051 We, uh... we both come from religious families, 231 00:14:04,134 --> 00:14:08,305 and it's something we drifted from a bit, and thought maybe it was... 232 00:14:09,390 --> 00:14:12,726 something Hannah perhaps should have had in her life. 233 00:14:12,810 --> 00:14:13,727 We were ashamed. 234 00:14:13,811 --> 00:14:14,645 [sighs] 235 00:14:16,355 --> 00:14:19,817 We were ashamed to have a funeral. 236 00:14:21,652 --> 00:14:22,653 Or a service. 237 00:14:23,320 --> 00:14:26,073 But then, after everything that happened, 238 00:14:26,156 --> 00:14:28,617 if there is a God, I want Him to see that... 239 00:14:31,704 --> 00:14:34,748 my little girl deserves His care. 240 00:14:37,084 --> 00:14:37,918 He will. 241 00:14:39,295 --> 00:14:40,212 He'll see that. 242 00:14:41,380 --> 00:14:43,257 [Mr. Baker] A few of the other places we called, 243 00:14:45,092 --> 00:14:49,221 [sighs] given the circumstances of Hannah's death... 244 00:14:51,724 --> 00:14:53,350 Let me assure you... 245 00:14:54,310 --> 00:14:56,020 there's no judgment from me. 246 00:14:57,313 --> 00:14:59,773 Not regarding Hannah's decision 247 00:15:00,816 --> 00:15:02,735 or the circumstances that led her there. 248 00:15:03,652 --> 00:15:08,073 And I hope one day you'll release yourselves 249 00:15:08,157 --> 00:15:12,661 from any shame you might still be feeling as well. 250 00:15:24,465 --> 00:15:28,469 [Clay] Life is divided into "Hannah" and "after Hannah." 251 00:15:29,345 --> 00:15:31,180 [Clay] I don't have anything to compare it to. 252 00:15:31,805 --> 00:15:33,140 I've lived here all my life. 253 00:15:34,850 --> 00:15:37,645 It's like asking Han Solo, "How is space?" 254 00:15:38,979 --> 00:15:41,565 Wow. You're an actual nerd, aren't you? 255 00:15:42,441 --> 00:15:44,610 I admire that. There's courage in being a nerd. 256 00:15:44,985 --> 00:15:46,195 [car horn honking] 257 00:15:48,614 --> 00:15:50,616 ["Lovely" playing] 258 00:15:51,075 --> 00:15:52,993 [Clay] Memories are sometimes a relief. 259 00:16:02,169 --> 00:16:03,671 And sometimes they're torture. 260 00:16:04,004 --> 00:16:04,964 [Hannah] I was right. 261 00:16:05,589 --> 00:16:07,508 You're the most courageous nerd I ever knew. 262 00:16:11,220 --> 00:16:12,262 They asked me to speak. 263 00:16:14,139 --> 00:16:15,057 At your service. 264 00:16:16,558 --> 00:16:17,476 Are you gonna do it? 265 00:16:20,062 --> 00:16:21,188 I don't know what to say. 266 00:16:23,273 --> 00:16:27,361 Or if I can trust myself not to be angry. 267 00:16:28,195 --> 00:16:29,905 So, be angry. 268 00:16:31,782 --> 00:16:35,869 -♪ Tear me to pieces, skin to bone ♪ -♪ Tear me to pieces, skin to bone ♪ 269 00:16:37,496 --> 00:16:39,373 Or if I can say what I really need to say. 270 00:16:43,627 --> 00:16:44,503 I think you can. 271 00:16:47,297 --> 00:16:49,091 [Clay] But we hold on to the memories... 272 00:16:52,261 --> 00:16:54,054 [tattoo machine buzzing] 273 00:16:54,138 --> 00:16:55,681 ...because they're what we have left. 274 00:17:03,230 --> 00:17:04,565 You're doing great this time. 275 00:17:10,612 --> 00:17:12,781 You can look now. No more comma. 276 00:17:21,165 --> 00:17:21,999 Thank you. 277 00:17:22,082 --> 00:17:23,625 [Clay] And we have an urge to remember, 278 00:17:24,752 --> 00:17:26,211 to commemorate another time, 279 00:17:27,755 --> 00:17:29,506 to hold on to this as long as we can. 280 00:17:31,717 --> 00:17:33,177 The thing I'm most afraid of... 281 00:17:36,889 --> 00:17:37,848 is forgetting you. 282 00:17:40,350 --> 00:17:41,185 Then don't. 283 00:17:43,771 --> 00:17:46,982 The thing I'm second most afraid of is I'll never be able to let you go. 284 00:17:50,360 --> 00:17:51,904 Do you remember the winter dance? 285 00:17:53,238 --> 00:17:54,406 Not the slow dance, but... 286 00:17:55,032 --> 00:17:58,994 that song where we jumped around like idiots and looked like fools. 287 00:17:59,411 --> 00:18:01,497 Like absolute dorks. 288 00:18:03,874 --> 00:18:04,708 Yeah. [chuckles] 289 00:18:06,627 --> 00:18:07,461 Why? 290 00:18:08,712 --> 00:18:09,546 No reason. 291 00:18:10,672 --> 00:18:12,674 I just wanted you to think of that right now. 292 00:18:16,053 --> 00:18:20,182 ♪ Heart made of glass My mind of stone ♪ 293 00:18:20,265 --> 00:18:24,311 -♪ Tear me to pieces, skin to bone ♪ -♪ Tear me to pieces, skin to bone ♪ 294 00:18:24,895 --> 00:18:29,108 -♪ Hello, welcome home ♪ -♪ Hello, welcome home ♪ 295 00:18:29,775 --> 00:18:31,026 [Clay] But today... 296 00:18:33,070 --> 00:18:34,321 we begin to let go. 297 00:18:59,596 --> 00:19:02,641 We're here to say goodbye to Hannah. 298 00:19:05,394 --> 00:19:08,605 One act does not define a life. 299 00:19:09,815 --> 00:19:12,776 We celebrate the richness of her life, 300 00:19:12,943 --> 00:19:16,989 even as the tragic circumstances of her death cannot be forgotten. 301 00:19:19,825 --> 00:19:23,662 [Andy] It does my heart good to see so many of Hannah's friends here today. 302 00:19:25,247 --> 00:19:27,040 Hannah had the biggest heart, 303 00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:30,252 which she so generously shared with all of us. 304 00:19:31,753 --> 00:19:34,673 So, please, be kind to each other. 305 00:19:37,426 --> 00:19:41,180 She dreamed of going to New York to become a writer. 306 00:19:43,390 --> 00:19:48,145 I'm not sure when that dream began to feel impossible to her. 307 00:19:50,022 --> 00:19:53,442 Hannah was my dream. 308 00:19:56,278 --> 00:20:01,575 And now I get to dream for Hannah as well as for myself. 309 00:20:01,658 --> 00:20:03,285 And so do all of you. 310 00:20:04,745 --> 00:20:05,913 So, please, 311 00:20:07,247 --> 00:20:09,583 dream your dreams. 312 00:20:10,083 --> 00:20:11,710 And dream them for Hannah, 313 00:20:12,294 --> 00:20:14,922 and don't let anyone take them away from you. 314 00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:18,008 Don't ever let them go. 315 00:20:23,305 --> 00:20:26,391 Hannah Baker came into my life at the end of one summer 316 00:20:26,475 --> 00:20:29,519 like a star that fell to Earth. 317 00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:32,773 Like nothing I had seen, 318 00:20:34,191 --> 00:20:35,442 like no one I had ever met. 319 00:20:36,985 --> 00:20:40,364 She was funny, and smart, 320 00:20:41,907 --> 00:20:45,160 and moody, and... and maddening, 321 00:20:45,994 --> 00:20:47,704 and beautiful. 322 00:21:06,556 --> 00:21:07,391 And... 323 00:21:11,687 --> 00:21:12,562 I loved her. 324 00:21:15,107 --> 00:21:16,483 I loved her so much. 325 00:21:19,695 --> 00:21:22,739 And I ask her every day why she did what she did. 326 00:21:24,950 --> 00:21:26,243 But I get no answers. 327 00:21:30,330 --> 00:21:32,040 She took those with her when she went. 328 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:35,502 Leaving me, all of us, 329 00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:41,383 angry, empty, confused. 330 00:21:45,137 --> 00:21:47,055 And I know that hurt won't ever go away. 331 00:21:49,308 --> 00:21:51,643 But there will come a day when I don't feel it every minute. 332 00:21:52,477 --> 00:21:56,356 And the anger won't be so hot, and the other feelings will fade, 333 00:21:59,609 --> 00:22:01,194 and I'll be left with only love. 334 00:22:06,616 --> 00:22:08,243 A good friend once said to me, 335 00:22:09,619 --> 00:22:11,747 "I can love you and still let you go." 336 00:22:17,044 --> 00:22:18,086 So, Hannah, 337 00:22:21,715 --> 00:22:22,549 I love you, 338 00:22:25,260 --> 00:22:26,219 and I let you go. 339 00:22:30,140 --> 00:22:31,058 And I miss you. 340 00:22:35,270 --> 00:22:36,938 And I hope that wherever you go next, 341 00:22:38,774 --> 00:22:39,775 you feel peace, 342 00:22:41,651 --> 00:22:42,778 you feel safe 343 00:22:44,738 --> 00:22:46,448 in a way that you never did here. 344 00:22:56,291 --> 00:22:57,417 Wherever you go next, 345 00:22:59,795 --> 00:23:01,254 I hope you know that I love you. 346 00:23:40,460 --> 00:23:43,463 [people sniffling, coughing] 347 00:23:44,131 --> 00:23:46,133 [bell tolling] 348 00:23:49,177 --> 00:23:52,013 [chatter] 349 00:24:01,398 --> 00:24:02,357 Everything okay? 350 00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:07,070 Yeah. No, I just, um... 351 00:24:08,446 --> 00:24:10,782 -I was just taking a minute. -Of course. 352 00:24:11,825 --> 00:24:12,784 I'll leave you to it. 353 00:24:14,202 --> 00:24:15,203 Can I ask you... 354 00:24:20,500 --> 00:24:22,419 do you believe in the immortal soul? 355 00:24:23,962 --> 00:24:24,796 I do. 356 00:24:25,714 --> 00:24:27,591 And do you think Hannah is going to hell 357 00:24:29,009 --> 00:24:30,260 because she killed herself? 358 00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:36,474 I don't. 359 00:24:37,184 --> 00:24:40,854 I think the God I believe in, a just God, 360 00:24:41,771 --> 00:24:44,399 would have mercy on a soul like hers. 361 00:24:46,735 --> 00:24:50,363 And if God forgives her, we should. 362 00:24:51,531 --> 00:24:55,535 I believe we should follow His example, sure, but... 363 00:24:57,287 --> 00:24:58,538 it's not always easy. 364 00:25:01,833 --> 00:25:02,792 And do you think... 365 00:25:05,670 --> 00:25:07,339 Does God forgive us? 366 00:25:09,424 --> 00:25:10,675 The people who let her down? 367 00:25:12,219 --> 00:25:13,136 I think He does. 368 00:25:17,057 --> 00:25:22,103 Clay, you don't have to believe in the immortal soul 369 00:25:22,812 --> 00:25:25,732 to believe that people live on with us. 370 00:25:26,608 --> 00:25:27,859 Wait, what do you mean? 371 00:25:28,985 --> 00:25:31,780 Just that... we've lost Hannah, 372 00:25:32,948 --> 00:25:34,950 but not the things she gave us. 373 00:25:36,159 --> 00:25:40,872 Compassion, understanding, love. 374 00:25:43,041 --> 00:25:44,042 Those don't go away. 375 00:25:47,504 --> 00:25:49,506 ["The Healing" playing] 376 00:25:51,383 --> 00:25:53,593 ♪ Calm down ♪ 377 00:25:53,677 --> 00:25:58,014 ♪ Let the world spin around ♪ 378 00:25:58,098 --> 00:26:00,350 ♪ There ain't no other place ♪ 379 00:26:00,433 --> 00:26:02,602 [Clay] How do we take care of ourselves 380 00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:04,896 and look after each other? 381 00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:08,733 And celebrate Hannah's life 382 00:26:08,817 --> 00:26:11,069 and let it remind us to hold on to each other... 383 00:26:13,738 --> 00:26:15,240 and to the precious time we have? 384 00:26:20,954 --> 00:26:22,706 Do you remember when we first met you? 385 00:26:23,581 --> 00:26:24,874 At that table over there? 386 00:26:26,084 --> 00:26:27,836 You thought we were crazy. 387 00:26:27,919 --> 00:26:32,382 No. I was just, like, terrified and amazed. 388 00:26:32,465 --> 00:26:34,968 I mean, you guys were fearless. 389 00:26:35,844 --> 00:26:37,762 I don't remember being fearless. 390 00:26:41,850 --> 00:26:42,684 [chuckles] 391 00:26:43,935 --> 00:26:47,230 This is, um... This is really inappropriate at a wake, 392 00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:49,899 especially given the whole history, but... 393 00:26:51,234 --> 00:26:53,611 I've been... I've been trying for, like, two weeks now 394 00:26:53,695 --> 00:26:56,197 to get up the nerve to ask you, um... 395 00:26:57,157 --> 00:26:59,617 if you would wanna go to the Spring Fling 396 00:26:59,951 --> 00:27:02,871 as, like, people who date? 397 00:27:03,121 --> 00:27:05,749 Because I think that we are now, but I'm not really sure. 398 00:27:07,459 --> 00:27:08,293 Um... 399 00:27:09,711 --> 00:27:11,379 [stammers] I think we are. 400 00:27:11,963 --> 00:27:12,797 Yeah? 401 00:27:13,256 --> 00:27:17,844 I mean, I'm not sure how ready I am to be a person who dates, but... 402 00:27:18,470 --> 00:27:19,679 I mean, we are. 403 00:27:21,139 --> 00:27:22,474 -So, yes. -Yeah? 404 00:27:22,557 --> 00:27:24,309 -Yes. [laughs] -Okay. Oh, God. 405 00:27:24,392 --> 00:27:26,853 Is it okay that I asked you out at Hannah's table? 406 00:27:26,936 --> 00:27:28,563 Oh, it's all of our table. 407 00:27:29,606 --> 00:27:31,191 And I think she'd be okay with it. 408 00:27:32,192 --> 00:27:34,819 She'd probably make you interpret some weird painting. 409 00:27:35,653 --> 00:27:38,031 Yeah, who picks the paintings? 410 00:27:38,490 --> 00:27:41,409 [Zach] Yo, dude! [laughs] 411 00:27:41,493 --> 00:27:44,079 Oh, my God, you're crushing me! [chuckles] 412 00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:48,041 You're, like, down to nothing. We gotta get you on a program. 413 00:27:48,124 --> 00:27:48,958 Okay, sure. 414 00:27:49,376 --> 00:27:52,212 How the fuck did Bryce only get three months and you got six? 415 00:27:53,630 --> 00:27:54,464 Aren't you pissed? 416 00:27:55,382 --> 00:27:57,050 I guess I just wasn't surprised. 417 00:27:58,176 --> 00:28:00,553 Actually, I'm gonna take a gap year. I'm going to Europe. 418 00:28:00,637 --> 00:28:04,182 Which, I know, sounds like a cliché, but, honestly, Asia is the cliché. 419 00:28:04,265 --> 00:28:06,226 I mean, I could be going to Goa, but I'm not. 420 00:28:06,559 --> 00:28:07,394 I'm old school. 421 00:28:08,395 --> 00:28:12,148 I've actually been thinking about doing some traveling myself. 422 00:28:12,232 --> 00:28:14,192 Oh, my God, you should. You so should. 423 00:28:14,651 --> 00:28:16,611 [Courtney] It's annoying how smart she is. 424 00:28:16,694 --> 00:28:18,780 I don't like it when people are smarter than me. 425 00:28:18,863 --> 00:28:20,281 But it's fine because she's cute. 426 00:28:21,241 --> 00:28:22,742 It's so nice that everyone came. 427 00:28:26,538 --> 00:28:30,750 Maybe I should, uh, leave the two of you alone to catch up? 428 00:28:32,544 --> 00:28:34,379 Maybe you have some things to talk about. 429 00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:37,882 Yes. Yeah, there are. 430 00:28:38,967 --> 00:28:39,801 Okay. 431 00:28:47,684 --> 00:28:49,436 What... What things? 432 00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:54,649 So, um... [clears throat] 433 00:28:56,025 --> 00:28:59,529 I think my mom explained to you how she got you released into emergency custody. 434 00:28:59,779 --> 00:29:00,905 Yeah, she explained it. 435 00:29:01,656 --> 00:29:03,700 The thing is that's only temporary. 436 00:29:04,492 --> 00:29:06,786 And because you're not 18 for almost a year, 437 00:29:06,870 --> 00:29:09,581 once that expires, you become a ward of the state. 438 00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:12,000 Yeah, the... the social worker told me about that. 439 00:29:12,417 --> 00:29:13,251 Okay, yeah. 440 00:29:13,710 --> 00:29:16,838 And there's only two group homes in this county you'd be eligible for, 441 00:29:16,921 --> 00:29:19,674 and you couldn't finish school at Liberty and stuff. 442 00:29:20,633 --> 00:29:21,634 And my parents... 443 00:29:23,636 --> 00:29:25,513 I mean, me and my parents... 444 00:29:28,475 --> 00:29:31,269 wanted to see if you might want them to adopt you. 445 00:29:34,230 --> 00:29:37,692 [chuckles] Wait, what? 446 00:29:38,485 --> 00:29:41,905 Like, adopt you into our family. 447 00:29:42,113 --> 00:29:44,282 [stammers] You mean, like, I'd be your brother? 448 00:29:44,741 --> 00:29:48,703 Well, I'm-I'm not familiar with all the lingo, but-- 449 00:29:48,787 --> 00:29:50,538 Wait. Why are you asking me and not them? 450 00:29:52,540 --> 00:29:54,751 Because it was their idea, to be honest. 451 00:29:55,752 --> 00:29:58,546 And at first, I thought it sounded, um... 452 00:29:59,714 --> 00:30:00,590 idiotic. 453 00:30:01,090 --> 00:30:04,052 And they left it up to me, 454 00:30:04,135 --> 00:30:07,514 seeing as I was the person who brought you in their life in the first place. 455 00:30:08,139 --> 00:30:09,015 And... 456 00:30:10,308 --> 00:30:12,936 maybe it's a good idea, so... 457 00:30:15,063 --> 00:30:16,231 [Justin crying] 458 00:30:18,441 --> 00:30:19,275 Are you... 459 00:30:20,693 --> 00:30:22,070 -Are you crying? -[sniffles] 460 00:30:24,239 --> 00:30:26,241 You know I'm, like, really fucked up, right? 461 00:30:28,284 --> 00:30:31,120 Well... A, yes. 462 00:30:31,329 --> 00:30:33,748 -[laughs] -But you're clean and going to meetings. 463 00:30:34,916 --> 00:30:39,838 And B, I'm also fucked up in certain ways, so... 464 00:30:45,093 --> 00:30:46,094 Okay, yeah. 465 00:30:49,305 --> 00:30:50,932 I'd like to be adopted, yeah. 466 00:30:52,767 --> 00:30:55,144 Okay. Cool. 467 00:31:11,119 --> 00:31:13,079 [Clay] Everything affects everything. 468 00:31:13,371 --> 00:31:15,039 [school bell rings] 469 00:31:15,123 --> 00:31:17,041 Everyone affects everyone. 470 00:31:17,125 --> 00:31:19,127 [chatter] 471 00:31:26,009 --> 00:31:27,552 [sighs] 472 00:31:28,678 --> 00:31:30,471 Fucking Tyler Down is back. 473 00:31:31,222 --> 00:31:32,098 So? 474 00:31:32,974 --> 00:31:34,976 So, I wanna break his head open. 475 00:31:35,768 --> 00:31:38,229 Yeah, that's a great idea at this particular time. 476 00:31:38,771 --> 00:31:41,232 The field, the thing with Marcus... 477 00:31:41,316 --> 00:31:43,526 He cost us our season. We need to do something. 478 00:31:43,610 --> 00:31:45,528 We are not gonna do a goddamn thing. 479 00:31:46,279 --> 00:31:47,447 I'm on probation. 480 00:31:48,072 --> 00:31:50,491 Right, I know. I got you. I'll take care of it. 481 00:31:52,285 --> 00:31:55,747 Your father didn't beat you hard enough, 'cause you're still a fucking idiot. 482 00:31:56,205 --> 00:31:59,250 The last time you tried to help, you almost fucked up my whole plea deal. 483 00:31:59,417 --> 00:32:00,877 Well, none of it came back to you. 484 00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:04,172 No one was gonna believe I didn't know about all the shit that you did. 485 00:32:04,255 --> 00:32:06,174 I had to give you my goddamn lawyer. 486 00:32:06,674 --> 00:32:09,928 I would've taken the fall if I had to. I kept you clean. 487 00:32:10,803 --> 00:32:13,890 What did you think would happen if you killed Clay Jensen in my car? 488 00:32:13,973 --> 00:32:16,935 I knew those kids could fuck everything up for us, and they did. 489 00:32:17,477 --> 00:32:18,853 Well, you helped. 490 00:32:21,481 --> 00:32:25,026 I... Tell me what you want me to do. 491 00:32:25,610 --> 00:32:28,321 -Okay? I'll make it right. -I want you to leave it alone. 492 00:32:30,198 --> 00:32:31,449 And leave me alone. 493 00:32:32,241 --> 00:32:33,076 We're done. 494 00:32:48,049 --> 00:32:49,926 [Cyrus] Mack said you guys had a good talk. 495 00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:53,721 Yeah. She's dating Eric now, huh? 496 00:32:56,683 --> 00:32:57,558 Yeah, that's cool. 497 00:32:58,309 --> 00:32:59,143 You're okay, right? 498 00:32:59,519 --> 00:33:01,688 I mean, watching out for yourself? 499 00:33:02,230 --> 00:33:05,149 Those fucking jocks were not happy about the field and the season. 500 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:09,445 -Yeah. I'll be careful. -Good. 501 00:33:09,612 --> 00:33:10,446 And you know... 502 00:33:12,407 --> 00:33:13,241 about everything... 503 00:33:13,616 --> 00:33:16,119 Yeah. No, me, too. Yeah. 504 00:33:16,619 --> 00:33:19,205 -It got a little fucked up. -[chuckles] Yeah, totally. 505 00:33:20,498 --> 00:33:21,332 Hey. 506 00:33:22,417 --> 00:33:26,295 You know, being away, it was really good. 507 00:33:27,255 --> 00:33:29,841 And I realized a lot of shit, so... 508 00:33:30,091 --> 00:33:31,676 -You know. -That's good, man. 509 00:33:31,759 --> 00:33:34,387 -[chuckles] -So, we're all right? 510 00:33:34,804 --> 00:33:35,805 Yeah, for sure. 511 00:33:35,888 --> 00:33:37,348 -Cool. [chuckles] -Yeah. 512 00:33:37,765 --> 00:33:40,018 Hey, maybe we could catch another show sometime. 513 00:33:42,145 --> 00:33:43,521 I don't know, man. I... 514 00:33:45,314 --> 00:33:46,149 I don't think so. 515 00:33:47,483 --> 00:33:51,446 But it's great to see that you're back and doing so well. 516 00:33:53,364 --> 00:33:54,282 Yeah. Thanks, man. 517 00:33:56,576 --> 00:33:58,453 I mean, how are you even not crazy? 518 00:33:58,536 --> 00:33:59,871 I just... [groans] 519 00:34:00,872 --> 00:34:04,167 It's insane, but it's, like, not a surprise, I guess. 520 00:34:04,625 --> 00:34:07,045 And I-I just feel this peace that it's over. 521 00:34:07,128 --> 00:34:07,962 So, it's over? 522 00:34:08,337 --> 00:34:10,423 No trial, no more legal stuff? Done? 523 00:34:10,798 --> 00:34:11,632 Done. 524 00:34:13,176 --> 00:34:14,010 And I'm good. 525 00:34:14,886 --> 00:34:19,223 ♪ Oh, what a fine parade ♪ 526 00:34:20,099 --> 00:34:24,812 ♪ Ready or not, call your name ♪ 527 00:34:25,188 --> 00:34:27,857 ♪ Hey, now, where do I go? ♪ 528 00:34:28,649 --> 00:34:30,318 [Justin sighs] 529 00:34:31,861 --> 00:34:33,196 You gonna go to this dance? 530 00:34:35,990 --> 00:34:37,742 What, the Spring Fling thing? 531 00:34:38,868 --> 00:34:41,412 -Why in the world would I go to that? -I don't know. 532 00:34:41,871 --> 00:34:43,081 It... It might be fun? 533 00:34:43,790 --> 00:34:44,999 I don't go to dances. 534 00:34:46,375 --> 00:34:47,210 You can go. 535 00:34:47,627 --> 00:34:48,544 No. 536 00:34:49,837 --> 00:34:53,341 I just thought that it'd be my first thing back 537 00:34:53,424 --> 00:34:59,180 and I could show people that I'm not, like, hiding or whatever. 538 00:35:02,934 --> 00:35:04,435 [clicks tongue] Forget it. 539 00:35:07,563 --> 00:35:08,397 Fuck. 540 00:35:09,398 --> 00:35:11,818 Fine. [scoffs] We'll go. 541 00:35:13,694 --> 00:35:14,654 [chuckles] 542 00:35:15,071 --> 00:35:19,367 I just thought since I hadn't heard from you after I told you about Lucas-- 543 00:35:19,450 --> 00:35:20,910 Yeah, I left you three messages. 544 00:35:21,202 --> 00:35:24,997 [chuckles] Yeah, and they didn't sound like you really wanted me to call back. 545 00:35:25,081 --> 00:35:27,208 Okay, okay. Seriously? 546 00:35:27,959 --> 00:35:29,836 I think you're used to people chasing you. 547 00:35:30,711 --> 00:35:32,630 And you're used to getting away. 548 00:35:35,424 --> 00:35:36,259 Maybe. 549 00:35:36,968 --> 00:35:39,595 Well, you're not getting away. 550 00:35:48,813 --> 00:35:49,814 I should be on my way. 551 00:35:52,483 --> 00:35:53,568 Thank you for coming. 552 00:35:53,651 --> 00:35:57,989 Thank you for... for having us. 553 00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:00,825 I saw the store's for lease. 554 00:36:01,909 --> 00:36:03,161 I'm moving to New York. 555 00:36:04,328 --> 00:36:05,621 It was always Hannah's dream. 556 00:36:05,705 --> 00:36:09,083 She never made it, so I'll get there for her. 557 00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:11,794 I... 558 00:36:14,922 --> 00:36:18,259 I wasn't sure if I should share this with you, 559 00:36:18,342 --> 00:36:20,428 but after hearing what you said, I think... 560 00:36:22,096 --> 00:36:23,181 I think it's all right. 561 00:36:31,439 --> 00:36:35,443 I found it on one of the old computers when I was cleaning up the store. 562 00:36:39,113 --> 00:36:40,031 Hannah wrote it. 563 00:36:53,836 --> 00:36:54,962 "Reasons why not." 564 00:36:56,088 --> 00:36:57,089 You're on there. 565 00:36:57,548 --> 00:37:00,927 At least once, possibly twice. 566 00:37:01,010 --> 00:37:03,846 Did... did she call you "Helmet"? 567 00:37:06,724 --> 00:37:08,351 [chuckles] Yeah, she did. 568 00:37:13,439 --> 00:37:14,607 Eleven reasons. 569 00:37:15,566 --> 00:37:18,069 She came up just short. 570 00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:21,489 But she left so many out. You know that, don't you? 571 00:37:21,781 --> 00:37:26,535 No matter how many reasons there might be "why," 572 00:37:27,370 --> 00:37:28,829 there are always more "why not." 573 00:37:30,498 --> 00:37:31,332 I do. 574 00:37:40,758 --> 00:37:42,969 I wish I knew you when she was alive. 575 00:37:48,557 --> 00:37:50,059 I wish you'd known me then, too. 576 00:37:53,104 --> 00:37:53,938 Well... 577 00:37:56,107 --> 00:37:56,941 bye. 578 00:37:58,818 --> 00:37:59,652 Bye. 579 00:38:13,541 --> 00:38:14,500 [door opens] 580 00:38:17,712 --> 00:38:19,797 Why the fuck did you come back? 581 00:38:23,009 --> 00:38:24,218 I finished my program. 582 00:38:26,053 --> 00:38:27,847 Yeah, you fucked up a lot of shit. 583 00:38:31,684 --> 00:38:32,977 I'm sorry about everything. 584 00:38:34,478 --> 00:38:37,273 -If I hurt you in any way-- -They canceled our fucking season. 585 00:38:39,025 --> 00:38:41,485 I was acting out of a lot of anger and confusion. 586 00:38:41,569 --> 00:38:43,279 -Oh, yeah? -And I'm going to do better. 587 00:38:43,738 --> 00:38:45,990 And I hope that we can learn to talk to each other-- 588 00:38:46,282 --> 00:38:48,451 [grunting] 589 00:38:49,076 --> 00:38:51,954 God! You ruined my fucking life, faggot! 590 00:38:53,039 --> 00:38:53,873 Get up! 591 00:38:54,457 --> 00:38:56,709 -[water bubbling] -[groaning] 592 00:38:57,293 --> 00:38:59,587 [gasps] I'm sorry! Please, I'm sorry! 593 00:39:01,213 --> 00:39:02,048 Hold him! 594 00:39:03,549 --> 00:39:05,343 [gasping] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 595 00:39:09,263 --> 00:39:11,057 [groans] 596 00:39:11,682 --> 00:39:13,392 [screams] 597 00:39:15,478 --> 00:39:16,479 [shrieks] 598 00:39:28,699 --> 00:39:30,743 [panting] 599 00:39:30,993 --> 00:39:33,120 [door opens] 600 00:39:34,955 --> 00:39:35,790 [door closes] 601 00:39:45,299 --> 00:39:46,467 [Clay] We can get better. 602 00:39:47,218 --> 00:39:48,260 We can do better. 603 00:39:49,595 --> 00:39:52,973 But we still live in a world that is out to break us any way it can. 604 00:39:54,850 --> 00:39:57,228 -Yo, so how's the car? -It's getting pretty close. 605 00:39:57,603 --> 00:39:59,688 I've been working on it every hour I'm not in school 606 00:39:59,772 --> 00:40:01,273 and some when I should be in school. 607 00:40:01,357 --> 00:40:04,443 [chuckles] It was a beautiful car. Hey, why don't we go to your place? 608 00:40:05,736 --> 00:40:08,572 -All right? -I think your place is closer. 609 00:40:09,031 --> 00:40:10,449 I'm in the opposite direction. 610 00:40:12,493 --> 00:40:14,912 -You don't want me to meet your family. -It's not that. 611 00:40:15,704 --> 00:40:16,789 I just need some time. 612 00:40:17,748 --> 00:40:19,667 All right. I'll see you tomorrow? 613 00:40:20,584 --> 00:40:23,754 Um, you know, I got some bullshit I gotta take care of. 614 00:40:23,838 --> 00:40:25,214 Oh, some bullshit, like a dance? 615 00:40:26,757 --> 00:40:29,093 Yeah, Alex and Jess are going. It's like a thing. 616 00:40:29,176 --> 00:40:30,970 -Yeah, you see, that's bullshit. -[laughs] 617 00:40:31,053 --> 00:40:33,180 And I didn't wanna subject you to it, so... 618 00:40:33,264 --> 00:40:34,265 I appreciate that. 619 00:40:34,557 --> 00:40:35,391 [chuckles] 620 00:40:36,058 --> 00:40:38,102 -You'll come by after? -Yes. 621 00:40:40,646 --> 00:40:45,234 [Alex] And my mom got me some game that's about being a flower or some shit. 622 00:40:45,317 --> 00:40:47,111 -[laughs] -I'm serious. [chuckles] 623 00:40:47,194 --> 00:40:50,698 But I talked my dad into driving since he won't let me drive for real yet. 624 00:40:50,990 --> 00:40:53,951 -Excellent use of guilt, sir. -Yeah, I thought so. 625 00:40:55,119 --> 00:40:56,912 I beat off three times this morning. 626 00:40:58,122 --> 00:41:00,166 I don't wanna know that. Why would you tell me? 627 00:41:00,332 --> 00:41:02,001 'Cause I thought you'd be happy for me. 628 00:41:04,420 --> 00:41:08,132 Actually, I-I'm very happy for you. That's, uh, impressive. 629 00:41:08,424 --> 00:41:09,300 -Thank you. -Yeah. 630 00:41:11,385 --> 00:41:14,305 I'm worried about dancing with Jess. 631 00:41:15,181 --> 00:41:19,018 Like, I-I don't wanna go to the dance and just sit there, 'cause that's stupid. 632 00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:21,187 And it doesn't get me closer to kissing her. 633 00:41:21,270 --> 00:41:24,273 So I wanna dance with her, but I think I'll just fall over. 634 00:41:24,690 --> 00:41:27,985 No, just, um, lean on her. 635 00:41:28,235 --> 00:41:31,113 What, like, a middle school slow dance? That's so dumb. 636 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:34,617 No. Just, you know, like, let her help. Make it seem smooth. 637 00:41:35,034 --> 00:41:37,411 Okay, yeah, that makes sense. 638 00:41:38,370 --> 00:41:40,498 You know, I am sick of your "poor-me" attitude. 639 00:41:40,581 --> 00:41:43,292 -[car screeches, crashes] -This one's easy. Come on, get up. 640 00:41:44,168 --> 00:41:46,337 No. This is embarrassing. 641 00:41:47,004 --> 00:41:48,005 This is embarrassing? 642 00:41:48,714 --> 00:41:50,883 -Yeah. -Yeah, okay, you've done worse. 643 00:41:51,592 --> 00:41:53,511 Come on, put the controller down. Let's go. 644 00:41:54,303 --> 00:41:55,846 Come on. [grunts] 645 00:41:56,764 --> 00:41:58,349 I have to school you... 646 00:42:00,726 --> 00:42:03,812 -Okay. -My mom made me do some dance... 647 00:42:03,979 --> 00:42:05,856 Don't-- Never mind. Don't even worry about that. 648 00:42:05,940 --> 00:42:07,983 So, good hand on her waist. 649 00:42:08,817 --> 00:42:11,487 -Left hand on her hip. -Yeah. 650 00:42:11,570 --> 00:42:13,906 She'll hold it and just lean into her. 651 00:42:14,281 --> 00:42:16,283 -Okay? -What about--? 652 00:42:16,575 --> 00:42:18,327 Just try stepping. There you go. 653 00:42:18,869 --> 00:42:19,995 All the way in there. 654 00:42:20,913 --> 00:42:21,747 Yeah. 655 00:42:22,581 --> 00:42:23,415 See? 656 00:42:23,999 --> 00:42:26,252 The song will have to be pretty slow, shouldn't it? 657 00:42:26,919 --> 00:42:29,338 [footsteps approaching] 658 00:42:29,421 --> 00:42:31,966 So, it turns out the sushi place doesn't in fact deliver, 659 00:42:32,049 --> 00:42:34,593 so my dad and I are gonna pick it up. You wanna come? 660 00:42:36,512 --> 00:42:38,097 Nah, I'm... I'm good here. 661 00:42:39,807 --> 00:42:41,183 These are kind of addictive. 662 00:42:41,433 --> 00:42:42,643 [chuckles] Yeah, right? 663 00:42:45,896 --> 00:42:46,730 You okay? 664 00:42:48,524 --> 00:42:49,441 You seem weird. 665 00:42:50,818 --> 00:42:51,735 I think, maybe... 666 00:42:54,405 --> 00:42:55,239 I'm happy. 667 00:42:56,365 --> 00:42:57,199 Oh. 668 00:42:58,909 --> 00:42:59,743 Cool. 669 00:43:01,412 --> 00:43:03,789 ♪ Running around ♪ 670 00:43:08,961 --> 00:43:14,300 ♪ Is it really this fun When you're on my mind? ♪ 671 00:43:19,054 --> 00:43:24,518 ♪ Is it really this cool To be in your life? ♪ 672 00:43:29,148 --> 00:43:31,567 ♪ There's one thing I'll do ♪ 673 00:43:34,069 --> 00:43:36,614 ♪ If it ever goes wrong ♪ 674 00:43:38,574 --> 00:43:43,996 ♪ I'll write you into all of my songs ♪ 675 00:43:51,712 --> 00:43:54,757 ♪ And if suddenly I die ♪ 676 00:43:56,884 --> 00:43:58,886 ♪ I hope they will say ♪ 677 00:44:01,889 --> 00:44:06,477 ♪ That he was obsessed And it was okay ♪ 678 00:44:11,899 --> 00:44:17,237 ♪ 'Cause we're going downtown ♪ 679 00:44:27,039 --> 00:44:32,002 ♪ And we feel like running around ♪ 680 00:44:35,089 --> 00:44:38,509 ♪ And I'm going crazy ♪ 681 00:44:39,843 --> 00:44:43,055 ♪ Crazy for you ♪ 682 00:44:43,764 --> 00:44:47,351 Well? How was the first day back? 683 00:44:48,018 --> 00:44:49,978 Good. It was good. 684 00:44:50,062 --> 00:44:53,399 It was, um... like, I had to adjust to everything, but it was great. 685 00:44:53,899 --> 00:44:57,277 Yeah, there's a new guidance counselor, and she's totally smart, so... 686 00:44:59,488 --> 00:45:01,698 -I think it's gonna work, Mom. -That's great. 687 00:45:02,574 --> 00:45:04,660 Oh, that's so great, Tyler. 688 00:45:07,121 --> 00:45:09,456 Oh. We are so proud of you. 689 00:45:20,092 --> 00:45:20,926 [groans] 690 00:45:22,219 --> 00:45:23,220 [pants] 691 00:45:25,431 --> 00:45:26,473 [crying] 692 00:45:45,534 --> 00:45:48,370 Now bring that around to the right. No, no, no, the big end. 693 00:45:49,121 --> 00:45:50,747 -The big end. -That's what I'm doing. 694 00:45:50,831 --> 00:45:53,000 That's not what you're doing. Oh, my God, start over. 695 00:45:53,083 --> 00:45:56,211 -[scoffs] Would you fucking relax? -You-- You don't listen! 696 00:45:57,379 --> 00:45:58,714 You are so uptight. 697 00:45:59,006 --> 00:46:01,717 I am not uptight. It was your idea that we should wear ties. 698 00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:03,135 It's not even a formal dance. 699 00:46:03,218 --> 00:46:06,013 And if you wanna wear a tie, you should follow my instructions. 700 00:46:07,848 --> 00:46:09,224 We really need to get you laid. 701 00:46:10,809 --> 00:46:12,603 Shut up. Start over. 702 00:46:13,937 --> 00:46:15,230 Seriously, Jensen. 703 00:46:15,481 --> 00:46:18,025 Okay? You help me tie a tie, I will help you get laid. 704 00:46:18,442 --> 00:46:19,485 I don't need your help. 705 00:46:20,277 --> 00:46:23,197 I-- I know. I was just... I was just saying. 706 00:46:26,992 --> 00:46:28,327 I mean, you've had, like, 707 00:46:29,745 --> 00:46:31,538 a lot of sex, haven't you? 708 00:46:32,247 --> 00:46:35,292 Yeah, I've... I've had a good amount. 709 00:46:40,214 --> 00:46:44,760 ♪ Oh, I can't sleep at night Every second counts ♪ 710 00:46:46,470 --> 00:46:48,055 [Clay] So, how do we survive? 711 00:46:48,805 --> 00:46:51,934 How do we bring light to a world that seems only dark? 712 00:46:53,769 --> 00:46:57,147 This is the first dance I haven't DJ'd in two years. 713 00:46:57,814 --> 00:46:59,191 So now you get to dance. 714 00:46:59,441 --> 00:47:01,735 Dude, people become DJs so they don't have to dance. 715 00:47:02,611 --> 00:47:04,988 I thought it was because you had great taste in music. 716 00:47:05,280 --> 00:47:06,782 That's just my gift to the world. 717 00:47:40,566 --> 00:47:43,986 [music playing] 718 00:47:50,367 --> 00:47:51,285 Good evening. 719 00:47:52,619 --> 00:47:53,453 [laughs] 720 00:47:54,162 --> 00:47:56,456 Good evening. Did-- Did you do this? 721 00:47:57,374 --> 00:47:59,751 I got him a guest pass. Apparently, you forgot to. 722 00:48:04,172 --> 00:48:06,049 I didn't go to dances when I was in school 723 00:48:06,133 --> 00:48:08,176 because I felt so awkward dancing with girls. 724 00:48:09,219 --> 00:48:11,680 It may seem like high school bullshit to you, but to me, 725 00:48:11,763 --> 00:48:14,016 it's finally being able to dance with my boyfriend. 726 00:48:15,100 --> 00:48:16,018 If he will. 727 00:48:16,393 --> 00:48:17,394 Of course I will. 728 00:48:18,020 --> 00:48:20,147 -After bitching about the DJ. -[laughs] 729 00:48:23,984 --> 00:48:25,360 Yeah, me, too. 730 00:48:25,444 --> 00:48:27,446 [chattering] 731 00:48:27,779 --> 00:48:28,614 [Alex] Hey. 732 00:48:29,281 --> 00:48:30,115 Hey. 733 00:48:33,827 --> 00:48:34,786 You guys look good. 734 00:48:35,454 --> 00:48:37,414 Thanks. Yeah, I bedazzled the cane, so... 735 00:48:39,333 --> 00:48:40,250 I didn't, really. 736 00:48:40,584 --> 00:48:42,461 Well, if we have to do this, let's do it. 737 00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:44,504 Okay. 738 00:48:45,005 --> 00:48:45,881 All right. 739 00:48:45,964 --> 00:48:47,007 -You ready? -Yep. 740 00:48:47,090 --> 00:48:48,383 All right. [laughs] 741 00:48:50,761 --> 00:48:54,222 ♪ I'm living inside my head ♪ 742 00:48:55,891 --> 00:48:59,436 ♪ I'm living inside my head ♪ 743 00:49:01,855 --> 00:49:04,066 -Tony. Caleb. Hey! -Hey, what's up? 744 00:49:04,149 --> 00:49:06,068 -Hi. This is Tamika. -Hey, Tamika. 745 00:49:06,151 --> 00:49:06,985 -Hi, Tamika. -Hi. 746 00:49:07,069 --> 00:49:07,986 She's my girlfriend. 747 00:49:08,070 --> 00:49:09,863 -[gasps] -[laughs] Oh. 748 00:49:09,946 --> 00:49:12,199 [music continues] 749 00:49:30,842 --> 00:49:33,553 ♪ Light it up just like a flashlight ♪ 750 00:49:34,680 --> 00:49:35,555 ♪ Let it shine ♪ 751 00:49:35,639 --> 00:49:37,182 You sure you don't wanna sit down? 752 00:49:37,641 --> 00:49:40,727 No, I don't wanna sit. I wanna dance. I just need to work up to it. 753 00:49:41,395 --> 00:49:44,481 -You want a drink? -You know they're non-alcoholic. 754 00:49:44,564 --> 00:49:46,316 Yeah, but any chance for sugar. 755 00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:49,611 ♪ It feels good to be Running from the devil ♪ 756 00:49:50,112 --> 00:49:51,363 ♪ Another breath ♪ 757 00:49:51,446 --> 00:49:53,281 You would've been really good for Hannah. 758 00:49:54,700 --> 00:49:55,784 I'm just saying. 759 00:49:57,327 --> 00:50:01,373 Yeah? You know, if I didn't fuck it up like I fuck up everything else. 760 00:50:02,165 --> 00:50:05,001 Dude, you do not wanna be having that contest with me. 761 00:50:05,085 --> 00:50:07,087 ["Rollercoaster" playing] 762 00:50:08,964 --> 00:50:10,882 I'm really sorry you couldn't talk to me. 763 00:50:13,343 --> 00:50:15,011 Come on. We gotta go in for this one! 764 00:50:15,095 --> 00:50:17,013 Okay, but it's full contact. 765 00:50:17,222 --> 00:50:18,682 This dance desperately needs it. 766 00:50:18,765 --> 00:50:20,183 -Yeah! -Fuck this. Let's go. 767 00:50:22,644 --> 00:50:25,689 Jensen, come on. Are you about kicking ass or are you not? 768 00:50:26,773 --> 00:50:27,607 I'm... 769 00:50:28,442 --> 00:50:30,986 ♪ It was summer when I saw your face ♪ 770 00:50:32,112 --> 00:50:32,946 I am. 771 00:50:35,323 --> 00:50:36,158 I totally am. 772 00:50:37,367 --> 00:50:39,828 ♪ Some killer queen you are ♪ 773 00:50:40,287 --> 00:50:41,121 Hey, come on. 774 00:50:43,832 --> 00:50:46,835 If Jeff Atkins were here, he'd say, "Get your asses up and come on." 775 00:50:49,629 --> 00:50:52,174 Guys, come on! Come on! 776 00:50:52,257 --> 00:50:54,384 ♪ So come a little closer ♪ 777 00:50:55,135 --> 00:50:57,262 ♪ There is something I can tell ya ♪ 778 00:50:58,138 --> 00:51:00,932 ♪ You are such a rollercoaster ♪ 779 00:51:01,183 --> 00:51:04,102 ♪ And a killer queen you are ♪ 780 00:51:10,567 --> 00:51:12,778 [Clay] How can we find joy in our lives... 781 00:51:13,987 --> 00:51:15,405 in this world after Hannah? 782 00:51:16,156 --> 00:51:18,116 ♪ Come a little closer ♪ 783 00:51:20,285 --> 00:51:24,247 ♪ Why don't you come a little closer? ♪ 784 00:51:27,709 --> 00:51:29,961 ♪ Why don't you come a little closer? ♪ 785 00:51:31,004 --> 00:51:32,964 ♪ There's something I can tell ya ♪ 786 00:51:34,049 --> 00:51:35,759 Compared to them, I look all right. 787 00:51:36,676 --> 00:51:38,887 ♪ Some killer queen you are ♪ 788 00:51:38,970 --> 00:51:42,224 ♪ Rollercoaster, I don't say no ♪ 789 00:51:42,808 --> 00:51:44,893 [Clay] How do we take what hurts most? 790 00:51:46,102 --> 00:51:49,231 Take the darkness and turn it into light? 791 00:51:50,816 --> 00:51:53,777 ♪ Rollercoaster, I don't say no ♪ 792 00:51:53,860 --> 00:51:56,488 ♪ Rollercoaster, when you don't say no ♪ 793 00:51:56,571 --> 00:51:58,573 [Clay] I think the answer is we love each other. 794 00:52:00,492 --> 00:52:03,745 ♪ Some killer queen you are ♪ 795 00:52:06,915 --> 00:52:07,916 [Clay] Easy to say. 796 00:52:08,834 --> 00:52:10,710 But what do we do when it's hard to love? 797 00:52:22,055 --> 00:52:24,808 ♪ She thinks I've got a heart of stone ♪ 798 00:52:26,434 --> 00:52:30,397 ♪ Because I left her all alone Lonely tonight ♪ 799 00:52:30,689 --> 00:52:33,358 ♪ She thinks I'm gonna break her heart ♪ 800 00:52:35,902 --> 00:52:36,987 You want a real drink? 801 00:52:40,198 --> 00:52:41,491 No, thanks. I'm good. 802 00:52:44,160 --> 00:52:47,706 ♪ I don't have those emotions in me ♪ 803 00:52:49,291 --> 00:52:52,627 -[Bryce] Brings back memories, huh? -I heard you were transferring. 804 00:52:53,628 --> 00:52:54,462 Yeah. 805 00:52:55,338 --> 00:52:56,590 Yeah, I'm gonna start over. 806 00:52:58,884 --> 00:52:59,801 Lucky you. 807 00:53:03,972 --> 00:53:05,181 I'm gonna miss this. 808 00:53:07,517 --> 00:53:08,351 All of it. 809 00:53:13,231 --> 00:53:14,524 You remember freshman year? 810 00:53:14,858 --> 00:53:16,985 The night before our first day, you stayed over. 811 00:53:18,111 --> 00:53:21,531 We stayed up talking about how we were gonna be kings of this fucking school. 812 00:53:24,367 --> 00:53:25,243 Yeah, I remember. 813 00:53:27,662 --> 00:53:28,788 I'll always remember. 814 00:53:33,585 --> 00:53:34,461 Me, too, brother. 815 00:53:39,549 --> 00:53:40,383 [Clay] Justin. 816 00:53:43,428 --> 00:53:45,555 -You okay? -[Bryce] He's fine. 817 00:53:46,556 --> 00:53:49,768 I can't touch him. Or you, or I go to jail. 818 00:53:50,936 --> 00:53:52,812 Funny. I don't have that problem. 819 00:53:53,104 --> 00:53:54,606 [chuckles] 820 00:53:56,358 --> 00:53:57,651 You're a good kid, Clay. 821 00:53:58,068 --> 00:54:00,612 You need to get laid, but you're a good kid. 822 00:54:00,695 --> 00:54:02,781 [music continues] 823 00:54:12,707 --> 00:54:13,583 You all right? 824 00:54:14,751 --> 00:54:15,627 Yeah, I just... 825 00:54:18,129 --> 00:54:20,590 I'm gonna go use the bathroom for a quick minute, okay? 826 00:54:20,674 --> 00:54:21,883 I'll... I'll be right back. 827 00:54:22,342 --> 00:54:25,762 ♪ My kind of love, my kind of love ♪ 828 00:54:25,887 --> 00:54:28,139 ♪ It's a deeper love, it's a darker love ♪ 829 00:54:28,765 --> 00:54:30,183 ♪ My kind of love ♪ 830 00:54:30,934 --> 00:54:34,437 ♪ My kind of love, my kind of love ♪ 831 00:54:34,521 --> 00:54:36,856 ♪ It's a deeper love, it's a darker love ♪ 832 00:54:39,901 --> 00:54:43,905 ♪ And I know I can hold you Like he does ♪ 833 00:54:44,114 --> 00:54:48,034 ♪ I don't have those emotions in me ♪ 834 00:54:48,451 --> 00:54:52,455 ♪ And it's true I can love you Like he does ♪ 835 00:55:07,637 --> 00:55:09,556 [blinker ticking] 836 00:55:15,979 --> 00:55:19,482 ♪ My kind of love, my kind of love ♪ 837 00:55:20,316 --> 00:55:21,693 -[chuckles] -Yeah. 838 00:55:21,776 --> 00:55:23,278 -Whoo! -[photographer] One more, guys. 839 00:55:23,361 --> 00:55:24,195 I can't... 840 00:55:24,529 --> 00:55:28,199 ♪ My kind of love, my kind of love ♪ 841 00:55:29,034 --> 00:55:30,452 ["The Night We Met" playing] 842 00:55:48,470 --> 00:55:49,304 Oh, shit. 843 00:55:50,221 --> 00:55:51,097 I gotta find Clay. 844 00:55:51,431 --> 00:55:55,310 ♪ I am not the only traveler ♪ 845 00:55:58,188 --> 00:56:01,608 ♪ Who has not repaid his debt ♪ 846 00:56:04,444 --> 00:56:09,282 ♪ I've been searching For a trail to follow ♪ 847 00:56:09,908 --> 00:56:16,206 ♪ Again, take me back To the night we met ♪ 848 00:56:18,875 --> 00:56:23,922 ♪ I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you ♪ 849 00:56:26,132 --> 00:56:30,887 ♪ Take me back to the night we met ♪ 850 00:56:33,348 --> 00:56:38,478 ♪ I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you ♪ 851 00:56:40,271 --> 00:56:45,235 ♪ Oh, take me back to the night we met ♪ 852 00:56:47,862 --> 00:56:53,493 ♪ When the night was full of terrors ♪ 853 00:56:55,120 --> 00:57:00,125 ♪ And your eyes were filled with tears ♪ 854 00:57:02,377 --> 00:57:07,590 ♪ When you had not touched me yet ♪ 855 00:57:09,217 --> 00:57:14,597 ♪ Oh, take me back to the night we met ♪ 856 00:57:16,933 --> 00:57:21,688 ♪ I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you ♪ 857 00:57:24,065 --> 00:57:28,903 ♪ Take me back to the night we met ♪ 858 00:57:31,281 --> 00:57:36,327 ♪ I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you ♪ 859 00:57:38,538 --> 00:57:43,251 ♪ Take me back to the night we met ♪ 860 00:58:09,068 --> 00:58:11,154 [Jessica] What are you doing alone in the dark? 861 00:58:12,947 --> 00:58:13,823 It's creepy. 862 00:58:16,451 --> 00:58:18,119 I'm not alone anymore, am I? 863 00:58:20,914 --> 00:58:22,165 What's with these mats? 864 00:58:23,166 --> 00:58:25,251 They must have had a wrestling meet yesterday. 865 00:58:25,585 --> 00:58:26,961 Wait, we have a wrestling team? 866 00:58:27,337 --> 00:58:30,215 -You were a cheerleader. -Not for the wrestling team. 867 00:58:31,466 --> 00:58:33,092 And I was a shitty cheerleader. 868 00:58:34,677 --> 00:58:35,637 Yeah, you were. 869 00:58:37,972 --> 00:58:40,099 -What? You said it. -Still. 870 00:58:46,147 --> 00:58:47,273 You look beautiful. 871 00:58:50,985 --> 00:58:51,819 Sorry. 872 00:58:53,363 --> 00:58:55,740 -For saying I look beautiful? -Yes. 873 00:59:00,995 --> 00:59:04,832 So you're, like, living with Clay for real now, huh? 874 00:59:07,502 --> 00:59:08,336 Yeah. 875 00:59:09,671 --> 00:59:10,797 They're adopting me. 876 00:59:12,799 --> 00:59:16,010 Which, like, why anyone would wanna do that, I don't know. 877 00:59:16,761 --> 00:59:17,595 I do. 878 00:59:30,567 --> 00:59:31,776 Do you ever think about it? 879 00:59:34,946 --> 00:59:36,155 Doing what Hannah did? 880 00:59:37,699 --> 00:59:38,533 No. 881 00:59:39,534 --> 00:59:40,368 I don't. 882 00:59:42,745 --> 00:59:44,581 With everything that happened, I... 883 00:59:46,874 --> 00:59:48,585 I never thought that was a way to go. 884 00:59:52,088 --> 00:59:53,631 I've had some shitty days. 885 00:59:55,466 --> 00:59:56,301 But... 886 00:59:58,595 --> 01:00:01,180 -I always wanted to live. -Yeah. 887 01:00:02,849 --> 01:00:05,018 -I wanted to be alive. -I know. 888 01:00:06,269 --> 01:00:11,024 ♪ I wanna hold you When I'm not supposed to ♪ 889 01:00:11,107 --> 01:00:15,153 ♪ When I'm lying Close to someone else ♪ 890 01:00:15,236 --> 01:00:20,241 ♪ You're stuck in my head And I can't get you out of it ♪ 891 01:00:20,450 --> 01:00:22,952 ♪ I would do it all again ♪ 892 01:00:23,036 --> 01:00:24,829 ♪ I know I'd go back to you ♪ 893 01:00:25,163 --> 01:00:28,333 ♪ I'll go back to you ♪ 894 01:00:29,751 --> 01:00:34,255 -♪ I'll go back to you ♪ -♪ I'll go, I'll go back to you ♪ 895 01:00:34,339 --> 01:00:38,259 ♪ I'll go back to you I'll go back to you ♪ 896 01:00:39,260 --> 01:00:41,888 Cy, you better look at this. I just got this text. 897 01:00:44,932 --> 01:00:46,142 Jesus, Mack. 898 01:01:00,948 --> 01:01:02,575 We can't let him do this. We have to stop him. 899 01:01:02,659 --> 01:01:04,827 We need to get out of here. We need to call the cops. 900 01:01:05,078 --> 01:01:06,788 -Agreed. -If we do, his life is over. 901 01:01:06,871 --> 01:01:09,749 His life is over either way. He's either going to jail or he's dead. 902 01:01:09,957 --> 01:01:12,251 Tyler doesn't wanna die. I know he doesn't. 903 01:01:12,919 --> 01:01:13,753 Where's Tony? 904 01:01:13,961 --> 01:01:15,922 -What's going on, guys? -Have you seen Jess? 905 01:01:19,926 --> 01:01:21,928 [toilet flushing] 906 01:01:31,896 --> 01:01:33,022 -Jess-- -Don't. 907 01:01:33,106 --> 01:01:35,858 -Please? -What? What do you want? 908 01:01:37,694 --> 01:01:39,278 -I don't know what to do. -Really? 909 01:01:39,612 --> 01:01:42,532 -You don't know what to do? -Jess, I'm pregnant. 910 01:01:48,329 --> 01:01:50,623 [Clay] The next time someone is in desperate need... 911 01:01:54,210 --> 01:01:56,170 and they're about to make a terrible mistake, 912 01:01:57,422 --> 01:01:58,256 what do we do? 913 01:02:04,011 --> 01:02:05,304 Justin, find Jessica. 914 01:02:05,388 --> 01:02:08,099 Get everyone you can. Lock the doors, stay inside. 915 01:02:08,433 --> 01:02:09,600 And don't call the police. 916 01:02:09,934 --> 01:02:10,893 I gotta find Tony. 917 01:02:12,145 --> 01:02:13,563 What the fuck? Clay! 918 01:02:17,483 --> 01:02:18,943 [Clay] Do we look the other way? 919 01:02:19,861 --> 01:02:22,363 Do we just protect ourselves or do we help them? 920 01:02:26,701 --> 01:02:29,078 Do we do whatever we can to save them? 921 01:02:33,124 --> 01:02:35,376 I think I know what Hannah would want us to do. 922 01:02:39,505 --> 01:02:40,339 Tyler! 923 01:02:41,424 --> 01:02:42,425 Tyler, what are you... 924 01:02:43,342 --> 01:02:44,177 what are you doing? 925 01:02:44,677 --> 01:02:45,511 [trunk closes] 926 01:02:51,184 --> 01:02:52,810 Get out of here, Clay. Go home. 927 01:02:53,644 --> 01:02:55,813 No. No, I... 928 01:02:56,189 --> 01:02:57,774 Don't... Don't do this, Tyler. 929 01:03:00,735 --> 01:03:02,028 You need to leave right now. 930 01:03:02,737 --> 01:03:06,115 [stammers] Tyler, please, listen to me. You don't wanna do this. 931 01:03:06,491 --> 01:03:07,492 I... I know you don't. 932 01:03:08,785 --> 01:03:10,620 You don't fucking know anything about me. 933 01:03:11,162 --> 01:03:14,290 No. No, I do. I do know because I hurt, too. 934 01:03:14,749 --> 01:03:17,418 I'm pissed off. I didn't realize how bad it was for you. 935 01:03:17,502 --> 01:03:18,920 And I'm sorry that I didn't. 936 01:03:19,003 --> 01:03:20,296 -[Justin] Clay! -I should've-- 937 01:03:20,379 --> 01:03:21,672 Hey, g-go back inside. 938 01:03:21,756 --> 01:03:23,800 -Jesus, Clay! -Go inside! 939 01:03:25,968 --> 01:03:27,220 Get out of my fucking way. 940 01:03:27,303 --> 01:03:29,806 Tyler, please. Don't do it. 941 01:03:31,265 --> 01:03:33,351 -I have to. -No, you don't have to. 942 01:03:34,894 --> 01:03:35,812 You can turn around. 943 01:03:36,395 --> 01:03:39,065 -You can go home. -[police siren wailing] 944 01:03:40,858 --> 01:03:42,193 Everybody knows already. 945 01:03:42,360 --> 01:03:44,570 The only people that know are people who know you, 946 01:03:44,654 --> 01:03:45,988 and they wanna help you. 947 01:03:47,323 --> 01:03:48,741 -Bullshit. -No, look. 948 01:03:49,450 --> 01:03:51,953 [stammers] Tyler, they know you're hurting, we all are. 949 01:03:52,036 --> 01:03:54,455 And I don't know what to do about it, either. 950 01:03:55,039 --> 01:03:56,666 Okay? I tried hurting other people. 951 01:03:56,749 --> 01:03:59,377 I tried hurting you, and it didn't fucking help, man. 952 01:04:00,253 --> 01:04:02,463 It doesn't do any good. Listen to me. It doesn't! 953 01:04:02,547 --> 01:04:05,299 [sirens approaching] 954 01:04:06,217 --> 01:04:08,511 Tyler, listen. You don't get out of this alive. 955 01:04:08,594 --> 01:04:09,887 And I don't want you to die. 956 01:04:18,145 --> 01:04:19,605 I-I don't want you to die. 957 01:04:26,737 --> 01:04:28,573 If you think this is the way, 958 01:04:29,782 --> 01:04:31,993 if you really think this'll change a goddamn thing 959 01:04:32,618 --> 01:04:34,579 and not just be another fucking tragedy 960 01:04:34,662 --> 01:04:37,415 that adults cry about for a week and then forget, 961 01:04:37,498 --> 01:04:39,709 if you really think this is gonna be different, 962 01:04:44,922 --> 01:04:46,090 then do what you gotta do. 963 01:04:56,601 --> 01:04:57,602 Come on, Tyler. 964 01:05:05,026 --> 01:05:05,860 Please? 965 01:05:12,742 --> 01:05:14,327 There's nothing else I can do. 966 01:05:21,250 --> 01:05:22,084 There is. 967 01:05:25,087 --> 01:05:26,255 We'll figure it out. 968 01:05:27,298 --> 01:05:28,132 Okay? 969 01:05:31,344 --> 01:05:32,345 I swear. 970 01:05:45,775 --> 01:05:46,859 [tires screeching] 971 01:05:47,401 --> 01:05:49,362 -What the fuck? -That's Tony. It's okay. 972 01:05:49,570 --> 01:05:50,738 It's Tony. We're gonna go. 973 01:05:52,281 --> 01:05:53,115 Get in the car! 974 01:05:53,407 --> 01:05:54,241 Let me help you. 975 01:05:54,742 --> 01:05:55,868 Come on. It's okay. 976 01:05:56,953 --> 01:05:57,954 Fuck. Go, come on. 977 01:05:58,120 --> 01:05:59,163 Come on. Get in the car. 978 01:06:02,500 --> 01:06:04,710 [tires squealing] 979 01:06:04,794 --> 01:06:05,628 [Jessica] Clay! 980 01:06:07,463 --> 01:06:08,297 Clay! 981 01:06:09,715 --> 01:06:11,634 -Fuck. -[Jessica] Are you okay? 982 01:06:12,802 --> 01:06:13,636 No. 983 01:06:13,719 --> 01:06:15,721 [sirens wailing] 984 01:06:16,889 --> 01:06:18,182 This is fucked up, right? 985 01:06:26,524 --> 01:06:27,358 Yeah. 986 01:06:27,984 --> 01:06:33,489 ♪ Give me love, give me hope ♪ 987 01:06:33,572 --> 01:06:36,283 -What do we do now? -♪ Give me strength ♪ 988 01:06:36,367 --> 01:06:41,789 ♪ Give me someone to live for ♪ 989 01:06:52,591 --> 01:06:56,887 [man] For help finding crisis resources, visit 13reasonswhy.info. 990 01:06:57,221 --> 01:06:59,557 ♪ That I need to survive? ♪ 991 01:07:01,100 --> 01:07:06,188 ♪ Who will be the life blood Coursing through my veins? ♪ 992 01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:12,153 ♪ Like a river flowing That will never change ♪ 993 01:07:13,696 --> 01:07:15,906 ♪ I need someone ♪ 994 01:07:17,283 --> 01:07:23,914 ♪ I can depend on ♪ 995 01:07:31,297 --> 01:07:35,801 -♪ Won't you give me love? ♪ -♪ Give me love ♪ 996 01:07:35,885 --> 01:07:38,929 -♪ Give me hope ♪ -♪ Give me hope ♪ 997 01:07:39,013 --> 01:07:44,060 ♪ Give me strength Give me someone to live for ♪ 998 01:07:45,227 --> 01:07:48,314 -♪ Give me love ♪ -♪ Give me love ♪ 999 01:07:48,397 --> 01:07:51,484 -♪ Give me hope ♪ -♪ Give me hope ♪ 1000 01:07:51,567 --> 01:07:56,447 ♪ Give me strength Give me someone to live for ♪ 1001 01:07:56,530 --> 01:07:58,949 ♪ I need it now ♪ 1002 01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:02,369 ♪ I need it now ♪ 1003 01:08:10,461 --> 01:08:15,591 ♪ Someone write me a letter I need to know that I'm still alive ♪ 1004 01:08:16,801 --> 01:08:21,931 ♪ Someone give me a telephone call I need to hear a human sound ♪ 1005 01:08:23,057 --> 01:08:28,229 ♪ Someone open up a door And let me out of this place ♪ 1006 01:08:29,271 --> 01:08:32,024 ♪ I've been caged up for, oh, so long ♪ 1007 01:08:32,817 --> 01:08:39,532 ♪ I don't know if I'm living or dying ♪ 1008 01:08:46,789 --> 01:08:51,544 -♪ Someone better give me love ♪ -♪ Give me love ♪ 1009 01:08:51,627 --> 01:08:54,630 -♪ Give me hope ♪ -♪ Give me hope ♪ 1010 01:08:54,713 --> 01:08:59,552 ♪ Give me strength Give me someone to live for ♪ 1011 01:09:00,970 --> 01:09:04,056 -♪ Give me love ♪ -♪ Give me love ♪ 1012 01:09:04,140 --> 01:09:07,226 -♪ Give me hope ♪ -♪ Give me hope ♪ 1013 01:09:07,309 --> 01:09:12,356 ♪ Give me strength Give me someone to live for ♪ 1014 01:09:13,566 --> 01:09:16,652 -♪ Give me love ♪ -♪ Give me love ♪ 1015 01:09:16,735 --> 01:09:19,905 -♪ Give me hope ♪ -♪ Give me hope ♪ 1016 01:09:19,989 --> 01:09:21,574 ♪ Give me strength ♪