1 00:00:06,881 --> 00:00:08,883 [theme music plays] 2 00:00:26,401 --> 00:00:27,819 [light buzzing] 3 00:00:36,286 --> 00:00:37,662 [buzzing intensifies] 4 00:00:40,957 --> 00:00:43,418 I got a letter inviting me to a college interview, 5 00:00:44,169 --> 00:00:46,379 from a college I didn't remember applying to. 6 00:00:46,463 --> 00:00:52,010 And then I did remember writing an essay about confessing to covering up a murder. 7 00:00:52,093 --> 00:00:53,094 [swallows loudly] 8 00:00:53,178 --> 00:00:55,346 I didn't mean to send it. Somebody else did. 9 00:00:55,930 --> 00:00:57,515 And I got the interview. 10 00:00:58,349 --> 00:00:59,768 It's a crazy world, right? 11 00:00:59,851 --> 00:01:02,395 [rattling, footsteps] 12 00:01:07,192 --> 00:01:09,152 So, anyway, I have a college interview today. 13 00:01:11,404 --> 00:01:12,822 -I have to go. -[man] Yeah. 14 00:01:12,906 --> 00:01:15,825 -I can't miss it. -Well, I'll be sure to tell the doctor. 15 00:01:19,996 --> 00:01:22,248 I mean, I know I have some marks on my record, 16 00:01:23,041 --> 00:01:25,627 and I've... I've had a lot of struggles, 17 00:01:25,710 --> 00:01:29,255 but I guess my hope would be to start over. 18 00:01:30,673 --> 00:01:33,301 You know, to be the person that I know I can be. 19 00:01:33,384 --> 00:01:37,055 I think you'll find a lot of kids at a school for the arts like ours 20 00:01:37,138 --> 00:01:39,766 have had challenging high school experiences. 21 00:01:40,809 --> 00:01:42,811 And they come into their own in college. 22 00:01:42,894 --> 00:01:46,481 Yeah, I mean, like, there's more to me that people don't know yet. 23 00:01:47,357 --> 00:01:49,984 -[recruiter] Your work is very good. -Thank you. 24 00:01:50,068 --> 00:01:53,279 Tell me about the guns. You make them look, um... 25 00:01:56,699 --> 00:01:57,575 elegant. 26 00:01:58,493 --> 00:02:00,787 I think guns can be beautiful. 27 00:02:01,621 --> 00:02:04,124 The way they look, along with what they can do. 28 00:02:04,207 --> 00:02:05,083 It's... 29 00:02:06,167 --> 00:02:09,212 I mean, you can be attracted to them. 30 00:02:09,754 --> 00:02:10,880 Do you think that's... 31 00:02:12,048 --> 00:02:13,091 healthy? 32 00:02:13,174 --> 00:02:19,013 No. The fact that I put it in a picture doesn't mean I think it's a good thing. 33 00:02:19,097 --> 00:02:20,056 It's... 34 00:02:21,349 --> 00:02:25,145 [inhales slowly, clicks tongue] ...it's a picture that I needed to take. 35 00:02:26,354 --> 00:02:28,273 That I needed people to see. 36 00:02:28,857 --> 00:02:31,901 I'm actually... I'm scared of guns. 37 00:02:31,985 --> 00:02:35,363 And... and I think they're beautiful. 38 00:02:37,073 --> 00:02:39,576 You know? And I think a lot of people talk about... 39 00:02:40,785 --> 00:02:45,039 kids are angry, kids are sick, kids are violent. 40 00:02:45,790 --> 00:02:49,460 But we don't talk about the more complicated things 41 00:02:49,544 --> 00:02:52,964 like the fact that we are attracted to guns. 42 00:02:53,798 --> 00:02:56,134 I mean, some people are disgusted by them, for sure. 43 00:02:56,217 --> 00:03:00,096 But some of us are attracted, like, drawn to them. 44 00:03:00,180 --> 00:03:05,894 And these pictures are meant to get people thinking, you know, about why. 45 00:03:07,437 --> 00:03:11,357 [Ellman] ...about the possibility of self-harm more than anything. 46 00:03:12,400 --> 00:03:13,484 [Matt] Are you? 47 00:03:13,902 --> 00:03:16,029 Concerned about the possibility of self-harm? 48 00:03:16,112 --> 00:03:18,281 [Ellman] I think it's not a bad idea 49 00:03:18,364 --> 00:03:21,159 that we continue observation for a period of time. 50 00:03:21,576 --> 00:03:22,869 From the police reports, 51 00:03:22,952 --> 00:03:26,331 it does appear that some sort of breakdown took place at the school. 52 00:03:26,414 --> 00:03:28,625 The drill was incredibly stressful, 53 00:03:28,708 --> 00:03:29,959 and not just for Clay. 54 00:03:34,547 --> 00:03:36,174 [footsteps approaching] 55 00:03:41,304 --> 00:03:42,347 Hey. 56 00:03:46,476 --> 00:03:48,019 [sniffs] How do you feel? 57 00:03:50,730 --> 00:03:52,732 They're gonna keep me here, aren't they? 58 00:03:53,358 --> 00:03:54,234 [Justin] Yeah. 59 00:03:55,360 --> 00:03:59,322 I was arguing about it with them. I was... I was yelling about it a minute ago. 60 00:04:01,241 --> 00:04:02,408 So I guess... 61 00:04:04,285 --> 00:04:07,163 congrats. You are full-on the good son. 62 00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:08,122 Dude, come... 63 00:04:09,082 --> 00:04:10,250 Come on, man. 64 00:04:12,043 --> 00:04:13,044 I'm sorry. 65 00:04:13,628 --> 00:04:15,129 I'm sorry that... 66 00:04:16,130 --> 00:04:18,049 that I haven't been there to help you. 67 00:04:20,593 --> 00:04:22,428 I'm sorry that shit's so wrong. 68 00:04:24,639 --> 00:04:26,224 I'm not crazy. 69 00:04:29,227 --> 00:04:30,603 I'm just scared. 70 00:04:31,604 --> 00:04:32,563 Yeah, man. 71 00:04:32,647 --> 00:04:35,692 [Ellman] It's troubling, but I do think we have to trust the process. 72 00:04:35,775 --> 00:04:36,776 I am too. 73 00:04:38,695 --> 00:04:41,489 Do you, uh, want me to stay with you today? 74 00:04:41,572 --> 00:04:42,490 No. 75 00:04:42,573 --> 00:04:45,743 [Ellman] I know a doctor you can stay in close touch with 76 00:04:46,327 --> 00:04:47,370 until his release. 77 00:04:47,829 --> 00:04:48,913 I'm kind of... 78 00:04:52,208 --> 00:04:53,293 embarrassed. 79 00:04:56,296 --> 00:04:58,423 -Good morning, sunshine. -[whispers] Hi. 80 00:04:58,506 --> 00:05:01,092 Dad, we talked about "sunshine." 81 00:05:01,175 --> 00:05:03,469 [chuckles] See, classic Clay. He's fine. 82 00:05:04,095 --> 00:05:06,139 [Lainie] The doctors would feel more comfortable 83 00:05:06,222 --> 00:05:11,185 if they kept an eye on you for just a little while longer. OK? 84 00:05:11,686 --> 00:05:13,479 "OK," as in I get a vote? 85 00:05:13,563 --> 00:05:16,649 [chuckles] We'll get you out of here as soon as we can. 86 00:05:21,863 --> 00:05:23,990 [Jess] I gotta figure out what's up with Clay. 87 00:05:24,866 --> 00:05:25,950 People are blaming me 88 00:05:26,034 --> 00:05:30,330 like I had something to do with this drill. It's crazy. [sighs] 89 00:05:30,413 --> 00:05:33,041 No one thinks you had anything to do with that drill. 90 00:05:33,124 --> 00:05:35,376 -[scoffs] -Or that crazy motherfucker Clay. 91 00:05:35,460 --> 00:05:36,878 Hey, don't call him crazy. 92 00:05:38,129 --> 00:05:39,130 I'm sorry. 93 00:05:39,839 --> 00:05:41,007 Just come back to bed. 94 00:05:41,090 --> 00:05:42,425 [tapping phone keys] 95 00:05:42,884 --> 00:05:45,178 -[sighs] -Hey, where you at? 96 00:05:45,636 --> 00:05:47,013 -Huh? -[chuckles] What? 97 00:05:47,096 --> 00:05:49,098 [speaking Spanish] 98 00:05:49,182 --> 00:05:50,391 [groans appreciatively] 99 00:05:52,226 --> 00:05:54,228 -[speaking Spanish] -Mm. 100 00:05:54,437 --> 00:05:55,813 Oh, my God. 101 00:05:56,230 --> 00:05:58,775 That Latin lover thing is such a trope, Diego. 102 00:05:59,692 --> 00:06:01,235 It... The what now? 103 00:06:04,405 --> 00:06:06,157 -Oh, you really don't know? -No. 104 00:06:07,867 --> 00:06:09,619 -You're so pretty. -[chuckles] 105 00:06:09,702 --> 00:06:11,579 -[laughs] -[Ani] Hello? 106 00:06:11,662 --> 00:06:14,665 Oh, shit! I, uh... I forgot that Ani's back today. 107 00:06:14,749 --> 00:06:15,875 -Achola? -Yep, yep. 108 00:06:15,958 --> 00:06:18,002 She lives here sometimes. You gotta get out of here. 109 00:06:18,086 --> 00:06:19,379 -Come on. -What? I got no clothes. 110 00:06:19,462 --> 00:06:21,130 Here, just come on, go. 111 00:06:21,714 --> 00:06:22,799 -Go! -I got no clothes! 112 00:06:22,882 --> 00:06:25,802 Go! Get dressed on your way out! Go! Oh, sorry! 113 00:06:26,344 --> 00:06:27,887 [door creaking] 114 00:06:28,471 --> 00:06:31,349 -Good morning. -Hi! Welcome back. 115 00:06:31,432 --> 00:06:33,101 [suspenseful music plays] 116 00:06:34,519 --> 00:06:36,521 [Winston] I think Jessica Davis knows. 117 00:06:37,313 --> 00:06:38,439 See, look here. 118 00:06:39,023 --> 00:06:42,110 Monty and someone are writing back and forth using a number. 119 00:06:42,652 --> 00:06:44,904 "Twenty-one basically told me he did it. 120 00:06:44,987 --> 00:06:48,616 Twenty-one, using the drugs Bryce gave him." 121 00:06:50,201 --> 00:06:51,327 So I guessed. 122 00:06:52,120 --> 00:06:53,704 What if that's a jersey number? 123 00:06:57,375 --> 00:06:58,376 Twenty-one. 124 00:07:00,086 --> 00:07:01,003 Twenty-one. 125 00:07:02,797 --> 00:07:03,798 Justin Foley. 126 00:07:06,426 --> 00:07:09,512 Diego is gonna try to get it out of Zach today. 127 00:07:10,596 --> 00:07:12,890 And you think Jessica knows? 128 00:07:13,307 --> 00:07:14,350 She has to. 129 00:07:14,767 --> 00:07:16,561 I don't think she would lie to me. 130 00:07:16,978 --> 00:07:19,230 -To protect her boyfriend? -[Estela] I just... 131 00:07:19,897 --> 00:07:21,566 I thought we were friends. 132 00:07:23,276 --> 00:07:24,444 Me and her. 133 00:07:24,944 --> 00:07:26,154 [Estela inhales slowly] 134 00:07:30,616 --> 00:07:33,077 [Diaz] Bolan thinks it was more than the lockdown. 135 00:07:33,536 --> 00:07:35,079 He's still under observation. 136 00:07:37,039 --> 00:07:40,835 They did an initial evaluation, and he's not psychotic. 137 00:07:41,586 --> 00:07:44,589 So they're in crisis management to see if they need to commit him. 138 00:07:45,214 --> 00:07:47,175 [Bill] They don't think he needs inpatient? 139 00:07:47,258 --> 00:07:48,217 [Diaz] Don't know yet. 140 00:07:48,926 --> 00:07:52,221 And I don't know if it's just about the drill, or... 141 00:07:52,638 --> 00:07:55,766 -[Bill] Well, what else would it be about? -[Diaz] Well... 142 00:07:57,310 --> 00:08:00,521 I've been wanting to ask you a few things about the Walker case. 143 00:08:00,605 --> 00:08:01,856 [Bill] The Walker case? 144 00:08:02,940 --> 00:08:04,233 [Diaz] Yeah, I'm just... 145 00:08:05,109 --> 00:08:06,694 dotting the I's and all that. 146 00:08:07,361 --> 00:08:09,280 Making sure we have the whole picture. 147 00:08:10,114 --> 00:08:14,076 And since there's no audio or video from the Achola girl's statement, 148 00:08:14,744 --> 00:08:17,538 I was hoping you could help me out with a few questions. 149 00:08:17,622 --> 00:08:18,456 [Bill] Yeah. 150 00:08:19,582 --> 00:08:21,292 The officers subdued him. 151 00:08:21,375 --> 00:08:23,377 [stutters] Clay had a gun in his hand! 152 00:08:23,461 --> 00:08:24,962 They beat the shit out of him. 153 00:08:25,046 --> 00:08:27,256 Jessica, Clay was violently upset. 154 00:08:27,340 --> 00:08:30,426 He was not coherent, and he was armed. The officers had to respond. 155 00:08:30,510 --> 00:08:32,386 We were all violently upset. 156 00:08:32,470 --> 00:08:34,889 We were fucking terrified! 157 00:08:34,972 --> 00:08:40,019 Right. The intent of the drill was to evaluate student and staff response 158 00:08:40,102 --> 00:08:41,562 to an actual crisis. 159 00:08:41,646 --> 00:08:45,608 Whatever the intent was, the response is that we were fucking freaked out. 160 00:08:45,691 --> 00:08:47,902 And now we're pissed off. Everyone is. 161 00:08:47,985 --> 00:08:50,321 I thought you and I agreed safety was the priority. 162 00:08:51,322 --> 00:08:54,450 Do you really think that Clay is safer now? 163 00:08:55,743 --> 00:08:57,161 I'm sorry about Clay. 164 00:08:58,204 --> 00:08:59,372 I really am. 165 00:09:00,540 --> 00:09:01,749 [sighs] 166 00:09:07,547 --> 00:09:12,093 But I think there's more going on there than just a lockdown. 167 00:09:18,599 --> 00:09:19,600 [sighs] 168 00:09:20,226 --> 00:09:23,437 There's a petition going around saying that I should resign. 169 00:09:25,523 --> 00:09:28,484 That I wanted this crazy drill, 170 00:09:28,568 --> 00:09:32,196 and the cameras, and the metal detectors. 171 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:34,615 Nobody knows about our conversations. 172 00:09:35,199 --> 00:09:37,368 But they know that I haven't spoken up. 173 00:09:38,327 --> 00:09:39,537 Do you think you should? 174 00:09:40,371 --> 00:09:41,289 Speak up? 175 00:09:42,373 --> 00:09:44,834 Do you think it would make things better or worse? 176 00:09:48,671 --> 00:09:51,007 You know, they asked me at my interview this morning... 177 00:09:54,135 --> 00:09:56,679 They asked me, "What's the most stressful situation 178 00:09:56,762 --> 00:09:58,598 you've faced in your time here?" 179 00:10:00,891 --> 00:10:02,727 Of all the things I could have said, 180 00:10:03,311 --> 00:10:05,271 all the fucked-up shit that's happened, 181 00:10:06,731 --> 00:10:09,942 you know what I thought of? [slams cutter down, inhales deeply] 182 00:10:11,777 --> 00:10:12,695 You. 183 00:10:14,905 --> 00:10:16,032 You and Clay. 184 00:10:18,075 --> 00:10:20,828 Wondering if my friends are really just that: friends. 185 00:10:21,287 --> 00:10:26,292 Wondering if I'm gonna lose them or... or if they're gonna give up on me. 186 00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:28,669 [slams cutter down, breathes heavily] 187 00:10:28,753 --> 00:10:29,754 I guess I know now. 188 00:10:29,837 --> 00:10:31,839 [Tony] No one's giving up on you, Tyler. 189 00:10:31,922 --> 00:10:35,051 But what is going on? Why were you shopping for guns? 190 00:10:35,134 --> 00:10:37,928 Do you think the last year, everything we've been through, 191 00:10:38,012 --> 00:10:39,972 does that all just mean nothing to you? 192 00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:42,975 Do you think I can, just like that, just go back to where I was, 193 00:10:43,059 --> 00:10:47,897 just where I was before you guys all reached out and helped me? 194 00:10:47,980 --> 00:10:50,107 Before I worked so hard to get better? 195 00:10:50,900 --> 00:10:53,611 -You think all of that can just go away? -I hope not. 196 00:10:53,694 --> 00:10:55,071 Then why go through my stuff? 197 00:10:55,154 --> 00:10:57,156 I was doing what I thought was the right thing. 198 00:10:57,239 --> 00:11:00,910 [angrily] You could have ruined my life. 199 00:11:05,539 --> 00:11:06,457 [Diego] Hey. 200 00:11:07,333 --> 00:11:10,378 Winston said you guys bonded during the lockdown yesterday. 201 00:11:12,630 --> 00:11:14,006 Mostly just got stoned. 202 00:11:14,090 --> 00:11:16,300 No, he said you got some shit off your chest. 203 00:11:16,717 --> 00:11:18,594 Some very interesting shit. 204 00:11:23,766 --> 00:11:24,850 The fuck do you want? 205 00:11:24,934 --> 00:11:26,268 Tell me the story. 206 00:11:27,311 --> 00:11:29,563 Sounds like you've already heard it. 207 00:11:29,980 --> 00:11:33,359 I think you're protecting one of your friends. Like Clay is. 208 00:11:35,027 --> 00:11:37,279 You saw how that turned out for him, right? 209 00:11:39,323 --> 00:11:43,077 You know, you're supposed to be, like, this big stand-up guy, 210 00:11:43,160 --> 00:11:44,745 and you're keeping that secret? 211 00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:46,497 That's fucked up, Dempsey. 212 00:11:47,790 --> 00:11:51,127 Yeah, that's... that's worse than anything any other guy did. 213 00:11:52,712 --> 00:11:54,505 Come on, man. Just come clean. 214 00:11:55,589 --> 00:11:56,590 Cleanse your soul. 215 00:11:57,591 --> 00:12:00,177 Or... pay the price. 216 00:12:01,220 --> 00:12:03,806 You've always been able to talk, Diego. You know that? 217 00:12:05,099 --> 00:12:06,684 But when it comes time to play, 218 00:12:07,184 --> 00:12:08,602 the talk don't mean shit. 219 00:12:09,520 --> 00:12:10,438 Oh, yeah? 220 00:12:10,521 --> 00:12:11,397 Hmm. 221 00:12:13,941 --> 00:12:14,817 We'll see. 222 00:12:14,900 --> 00:12:16,527 [tense music plays] 223 00:12:23,492 --> 00:12:25,453 [Jess] Justin, I really gotta go. 224 00:12:27,371 --> 00:12:28,456 [Jess moans] 225 00:12:29,665 --> 00:12:31,834 How was this morning? Are you OK? 226 00:12:32,960 --> 00:12:33,836 No. 227 00:12:35,212 --> 00:12:36,255 How's Clay? 228 00:12:38,090 --> 00:12:39,258 He's not OK. 229 00:12:41,594 --> 00:12:42,636 Nothing is. 230 00:12:45,222 --> 00:12:47,141 Zach told Winston that he beat up Bryce. 231 00:12:48,601 --> 00:12:49,727 Fuck! Uh... 232 00:12:50,644 --> 00:12:52,730 -What? -Winston told Diego. 233 00:12:53,314 --> 00:12:56,066 So you're... you're still seeing Diego? 234 00:12:56,150 --> 00:12:58,110 He's, like, on a damn mission. I... 235 00:12:58,569 --> 00:13:01,030 I can't just drop him. I have to handle shit. 236 00:13:01,113 --> 00:13:04,700 OK, but is that all this is? It's just you handling him, or whatever? 237 00:13:05,075 --> 00:13:05,993 Yes. 238 00:13:07,286 --> 00:13:09,038 [tense music plays] 239 00:13:13,334 --> 00:13:14,251 Help. 240 00:13:15,836 --> 00:13:17,129 Ple... Please help. 241 00:13:19,089 --> 00:13:20,633 What? What is it? 242 00:13:21,175 --> 00:13:22,593 [weakly] I shit the bed. 243 00:13:23,010 --> 00:13:23,969 Oh, man. 244 00:13:25,095 --> 00:13:26,972 I'm sorry. Uh, hold on. 245 00:13:27,056 --> 00:13:29,767 -[Clay] Please? -[unbuckles restraints] Yeah, hold on. 246 00:13:29,850 --> 00:13:31,060 [gasps] 247 00:13:31,143 --> 00:13:32,978 OK, we'll get you in the shower. 248 00:13:33,062 --> 00:13:36,816 I can't leave you alone, so I will wait until you've finished your business. 249 00:13:37,900 --> 00:13:39,860 [nurse whispers] Oh, man, what a mess. 250 00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:51,914 [door closes] 251 00:13:59,046 --> 00:14:00,923 [nurse] We need some sheets in here. 252 00:14:01,590 --> 00:14:02,591 Taylor? 253 00:14:04,844 --> 00:14:07,805 You gotta crack the door, man. I have to be able to hear you. 254 00:14:09,265 --> 00:14:10,432 Taylor? 255 00:14:10,516 --> 00:14:11,475 Anyone? 256 00:14:15,229 --> 00:14:17,231 [thrilling music plays] 257 00:14:43,716 --> 00:14:44,800 [Justin] He left? 258 00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:49,305 You mean he escaped? 259 00:14:49,388 --> 00:14:50,264 [Diaz] Yes. 260 00:14:50,806 --> 00:14:52,975 -How? -Still unclear. 261 00:14:55,060 --> 00:14:58,188 Justin, I know that Clay and I have history, 262 00:14:59,273 --> 00:15:00,691 but I am still here for him. 263 00:15:00,774 --> 00:15:01,775 And I'm worried. 264 00:15:02,985 --> 00:15:05,112 He's in a fragile mental state. 265 00:15:05,696 --> 00:15:08,157 Yeah, you can thank Bolan for that. 266 00:15:08,866 --> 00:15:10,868 It's not safe for him to be alone right now. 267 00:15:11,452 --> 00:15:13,412 He could act out violently. 268 00:15:13,495 --> 00:15:14,830 He wouldn't hurt anyone. 269 00:15:14,914 --> 00:15:15,873 Not even himself? 270 00:15:20,377 --> 00:15:23,130 -Do you know where Clay is? -I have no idea. 271 00:15:25,341 --> 00:15:26,216 [clicks tongue] 272 00:15:26,717 --> 00:15:28,719 But anywhere's safer than this school. 273 00:15:30,679 --> 00:15:31,722 [Diaz sighs] 274 00:15:35,809 --> 00:15:39,313 Actually, I don't know if we ever even, like, liked each other. 275 00:15:39,396 --> 00:15:40,564 I mean, I... 276 00:15:40,648 --> 00:15:44,276 I mean, I loved her, I think. I don't... Er... I don't know. 277 00:15:45,361 --> 00:15:47,780 I guess... I think I loved her. 278 00:15:49,740 --> 00:15:50,699 Hey! 279 00:15:51,659 --> 00:15:52,785 Um, hey. 280 00:15:52,868 --> 00:15:54,244 -Welcome back. -Hello. 281 00:15:54,328 --> 00:15:55,371 [sighs] 282 00:15:55,454 --> 00:15:56,413 You look... 283 00:15:58,165 --> 00:16:01,085 How are you doing? I heard about the drill. 284 00:16:02,086 --> 00:16:03,212 And the hospital. 285 00:16:04,338 --> 00:16:06,215 Yeah. No, I'm... I'm good. I'm good. 286 00:16:09,468 --> 00:16:10,636 [clicks tongue] Um... 287 00:16:10,719 --> 00:16:12,346 They... they let me out, so... 288 00:16:14,014 --> 00:16:18,143 Just... I'm just not ready to go back to school yet, you know? 289 00:16:18,227 --> 00:16:19,228 [Ani] OK. 290 00:16:22,314 --> 00:16:23,816 What was it you wanted to talk about? 291 00:16:24,233 --> 00:16:25,943 Did you send my application? 292 00:16:27,152 --> 00:16:30,823 -Because they invited me to an interview. -That's great! 293 00:16:32,408 --> 00:16:33,325 So, you... 294 00:16:34,743 --> 00:16:37,121 [chuckles incredulously] 295 00:16:37,204 --> 00:16:39,957 [pants] How is that great? 296 00:16:41,041 --> 00:16:46,296 I wrote my essay about covering up a fucking murder, Ani! 297 00:16:46,380 --> 00:16:47,840 I wasn't actually gonna send it in. 298 00:16:47,923 --> 00:16:50,968 So you sent it, and they gave it to the police, who set up this interview. 299 00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:52,803 -Jesus, Clay. Breathe. -Oh, shit. 300 00:16:52,886 --> 00:16:55,723 I'm not stupid. I rewrote the essay. 301 00:16:56,306 --> 00:17:01,353 I talked about how building robots is... is a metaphor for overcoming setbacks. 302 00:17:01,979 --> 00:17:05,607 And now they want to meet with you. So, you're welcome. 303 00:17:09,403 --> 00:17:10,946 God, Ani. Fuck! 304 00:17:11,030 --> 00:17:12,990 When are you gonna stop? You know? 305 00:17:13,073 --> 00:17:15,492 When are you gonna stop trying to run people's lives? 306 00:17:16,535 --> 00:17:17,453 [exhales sharply] 307 00:17:19,705 --> 00:17:20,789 How about now? 308 00:17:23,083 --> 00:17:24,293 I'll stop now. 309 00:17:25,544 --> 00:17:26,712 And my mum's fine. 310 00:17:27,796 --> 00:17:28,964 Thanks for asking. 311 00:17:29,339 --> 00:17:31,050 Shit, wait. How is your mom? I-- 312 00:17:31,133 --> 00:17:32,134 Yeah, fine. 313 00:17:36,305 --> 00:17:39,141 -Hey. -What the f... Who does that? 314 00:17:39,224 --> 00:17:40,559 Guys do it. It's a thing. 315 00:17:40,642 --> 00:17:43,979 It's... it's, like, a Titanic, king-of-the-world kind of thing. 316 00:17:44,063 --> 00:17:45,105 I've seen it done. 317 00:17:45,189 --> 00:17:48,942 OK, well, I'm not Kate Winslet, and what is even happening here? 318 00:17:50,360 --> 00:17:52,154 Like between us? 319 00:17:53,030 --> 00:17:54,281 Uh... 320 00:17:55,365 --> 00:17:59,953 I guess, uh, I kind of felt like maybe we would be a thing, you know? 321 00:18:00,537 --> 00:18:02,581 No? Uh... I don't know. 322 00:18:02,664 --> 00:18:06,085 'Cause you're, like, the first actual guy I've kissed who's, like, kissed me back. 323 00:18:06,168 --> 00:18:07,836 And you're a real non-imaginary person. 324 00:18:07,920 --> 00:18:11,256 OK. Tyler is in school. Like, nothing happened. 325 00:18:11,757 --> 00:18:13,550 What? How? We... 326 00:18:14,051 --> 00:18:16,095 -What do you mean? -I don't fucking know. 327 00:18:16,178 --> 00:18:18,847 Tony says we're not supposed to tell anyone, and he'll deal with it. 328 00:18:18,931 --> 00:18:19,932 And he will. 329 00:18:21,433 --> 00:18:23,185 -Hey. -Can we just... 330 00:18:24,686 --> 00:18:28,273 [sighs] Look, I have history, I have my interview later, and... 331 00:18:29,316 --> 00:18:30,234 Yeah. 332 00:18:30,317 --> 00:18:31,276 OK. 333 00:18:32,111 --> 00:18:33,112 [Luke] St. George! 334 00:18:33,821 --> 00:18:35,322 Got the math answers or what? 335 00:18:37,157 --> 00:18:38,575 You should take care of that. 336 00:18:42,454 --> 00:18:43,330 Go. 337 00:19:02,307 --> 00:19:05,435 [eerie music plays over inaudible speech] 338 00:19:18,073 --> 00:19:19,741 [Justin] I texted you twice. 339 00:19:21,243 --> 00:19:23,370 "Gordon Lightfoot. Urgent." 340 00:19:25,330 --> 00:19:27,249 [exhales sharply] Yeah, I'm, uh... 341 00:19:29,168 --> 00:19:30,586 I'm ignoring that shit now. 342 00:19:32,921 --> 00:19:35,340 Did you really tell Winston? 343 00:19:36,466 --> 00:19:39,261 -What the fuck were you thinking? -That I was gonna die. 344 00:19:39,344 --> 00:19:40,846 We're all gonna fucking die! 345 00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,600 Question is, do you wanna die in jail? 346 00:19:44,683 --> 00:19:47,603 You know, I get it, you hate Jess, but what the fuck about Alex? 347 00:19:47,686 --> 00:19:48,687 I don't hate... 348 00:19:51,523 --> 00:19:53,150 I don't hate anybody, OK? 349 00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:57,696 I didn't mean to make things worse. I was stoned. I thought I was gonna die. 350 00:19:58,071 --> 00:20:00,782 And that drill was just so fucked-up, so... 351 00:20:00,866 --> 00:20:03,035 You need to fix this with Diego. 352 00:20:03,118 --> 00:20:03,994 How? 353 00:20:04,745 --> 00:20:05,954 The fuck if I know. 354 00:20:06,288 --> 00:20:07,915 You're the straight-A student. 355 00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:10,959 Yeah, not anymore. 356 00:20:15,255 --> 00:20:16,632 [indistinct chattering] 357 00:20:16,715 --> 00:20:18,300 [officer] All right, listen up. 358 00:20:18,634 --> 00:20:20,761 We got a gun deal set up with the Down kid. 359 00:20:28,393 --> 00:20:30,520 -Fuck. -[coach] Tony, hey! 360 00:20:30,604 --> 00:20:33,315 Here we go. I don't know why they don't do this online. 361 00:20:33,398 --> 00:20:35,484 It's... Boxing's still in the Stone Age. 362 00:20:35,567 --> 00:20:38,070 Your, uh, trainer, Caleb, he owns the gym, right? 363 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:40,280 -Yeah, right. -Well, he needs to fill this out. 364 00:20:40,364 --> 00:20:42,908 Certificate of occupancy, certificate of insurance. 365 00:20:42,991 --> 00:20:45,452 Then we can schedule the match. Easy, all good. 366 00:20:45,535 --> 00:20:46,578 OK. 367 00:20:46,662 --> 00:20:50,582 -[woman] Ted, need you in back. -Got it. All right, get that in ASAP. 368 00:20:50,666 --> 00:20:54,044 'Cause that McConnell kid wants to fight and he wants to fight right now. 369 00:20:54,503 --> 00:20:56,380 You good? You eating right? 370 00:20:56,463 --> 00:20:57,881 -Yeah, sure. -Yeah? You sure? 371 00:20:57,965 --> 00:20:59,258 -Yeah. -Pow, pow, pow! 372 00:20:59,341 --> 00:21:02,552 We got it all set up with the Down kid outside the Blue Spot Tuesday night. 373 00:21:02,636 --> 00:21:04,263 We're gonna need a full tactical team. 374 00:21:04,346 --> 00:21:06,014 [ominous music plays] 375 00:21:24,700 --> 00:21:25,784 [knocking on door] 376 00:21:38,213 --> 00:21:39,214 [door unlocks] 377 00:21:40,048 --> 00:21:40,882 Clay. 378 00:21:42,217 --> 00:21:44,511 It's not appropriate for you to be here. 379 00:21:44,594 --> 00:21:46,346 No, I know. I'm... I'm sorry, 380 00:21:46,430 --> 00:21:49,683 -I didn't know what else to do. -I'm required to inform the police. 381 00:21:49,766 --> 00:21:52,686 Call the police, you'll never see me again. [sighs heavily] 382 00:21:52,769 --> 00:21:55,480 I just... I'm so tired. 383 00:21:55,939 --> 00:21:59,151 And I can never sleep, and I don't want to feel this way anymore. 384 00:21:59,568 --> 00:22:02,571 It's like this buzz in my head that just keeps getting louder and louder, 385 00:22:02,654 --> 00:22:04,114 and I think it's killing me. 386 00:22:04,197 --> 00:22:05,824 And I don't want to die, and... 387 00:22:06,658 --> 00:22:08,201 I just... I need this to stop. 388 00:22:09,369 --> 00:22:11,204 Can you please help me make it stop? 389 00:22:15,792 --> 00:22:18,086 [exhales slowly] Wait here. 390 00:22:19,838 --> 00:22:21,840 We'll go to my office. We'll talk. 391 00:22:23,342 --> 00:22:25,385 Then we'll both do what we have to do. 392 00:22:25,469 --> 00:22:26,428 All right? 393 00:22:44,529 --> 00:22:46,365 You avoided me at school today. 394 00:22:47,491 --> 00:22:48,867 Skipped our classes. 395 00:22:49,409 --> 00:22:52,412 Yeah, I needed to take care of a situation. 396 00:22:52,496 --> 00:22:53,997 Now I gotta go, so... 397 00:22:55,040 --> 00:22:55,957 Diego? 398 00:22:56,917 --> 00:22:59,544 Yes. Do you wanna say something about it? 399 00:23:00,045 --> 00:23:01,463 -I don't. -Mm-hmm. 400 00:23:01,588 --> 00:23:02,631 [Ani] Really. 401 00:23:02,714 --> 00:23:06,009 'Cause I don't think you get to say anything about who I sleep with. 402 00:23:06,593 --> 00:23:07,969 I know what I'm doing. 403 00:23:08,053 --> 00:23:08,887 I know. 404 00:23:08,970 --> 00:23:13,308 I just wanted to say thank you for letting me stay. 405 00:23:16,061 --> 00:23:17,312 I'm moving out tonight. 406 00:23:22,484 --> 00:23:23,944 You're going back to Oakland? 407 00:23:24,444 --> 00:23:25,320 No. 408 00:23:26,029 --> 00:23:29,783 Ironically, my mum insists that I finish the year at Liberty. 409 00:23:30,367 --> 00:23:34,871 She feels like my education's been interrupted enough by her illness. 410 00:23:37,916 --> 00:23:39,376 Tony said I could stay. 411 00:23:40,669 --> 00:23:42,087 You don't have to. 412 00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:44,256 I do. 413 00:23:49,803 --> 00:23:51,012 What I did... 414 00:23:53,306 --> 00:23:54,683 [sniffles] ...with Bryce... 415 00:23:58,728 --> 00:24:00,147 was unforgivable. 416 00:24:03,692 --> 00:24:07,571 And I'm so sorry that I hurt you. 417 00:24:08,655 --> 00:24:09,823 I didn't mean to. 418 00:24:10,907 --> 00:24:11,908 I didn't. 419 00:24:12,993 --> 00:24:15,662 I wasn't thinking. Full stop. 420 00:24:16,288 --> 00:24:19,249 I was just being a stupid kid. 421 00:24:23,295 --> 00:24:25,005 It's just... [sniffles] 422 00:24:25,839 --> 00:24:27,174 All I know is that... 423 00:24:29,634 --> 00:24:31,052 I guess that I was lonely. 424 00:24:34,139 --> 00:24:36,475 And I didn't think about the consequences. 425 00:24:40,228 --> 00:24:42,147 I think girls do that sometimes. 426 00:24:44,441 --> 00:24:45,567 With boys. 427 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:51,823 [Jess breathes deeply] 428 00:24:54,367 --> 00:24:56,495 I worry that things have... [sniffles] 429 00:24:57,704 --> 00:24:59,414 ...completely fallen apart... 430 00:25:01,708 --> 00:25:02,584 with you and me. 431 00:25:05,212 --> 00:25:06,296 And everything. 432 00:25:11,676 --> 00:25:13,845 [sniffs] And the only thing that's clear is 433 00:25:13,929 --> 00:25:16,431 that I'm not the person to put them back together. 434 00:25:39,246 --> 00:25:40,622 Is that a Rickenbacker? 435 00:25:42,332 --> 00:25:43,166 Guild. 436 00:25:43,625 --> 00:25:44,960 Starfire III. 437 00:25:46,086 --> 00:25:47,671 1966. 438 00:25:57,722 --> 00:25:59,975 This time, you take the couch, I take the chair. 439 00:26:00,517 --> 00:26:01,476 Clay. 440 00:26:02,978 --> 00:26:06,982 It's fine if you want to feel powerful at this moment. I understand that. 441 00:26:07,065 --> 00:26:10,068 But at some point, I have to involve the authorities. 442 00:26:10,151 --> 00:26:12,404 You take the couch. I take the chair. 443 00:26:20,495 --> 00:26:21,538 [door closes] 444 00:26:32,674 --> 00:26:34,926 You don't want the chair after all? 445 00:26:35,010 --> 00:26:37,137 I'm supposed to go to a college interview tomorrow. 446 00:26:37,846 --> 00:26:40,265 You believe that? A college interview. [chuckles] 447 00:26:40,348 --> 00:26:42,058 And you don't feel ready for that? 448 00:26:42,142 --> 00:26:43,977 I can't just sit there and talk. 449 00:26:44,060 --> 00:26:45,937 I can't even hold still anymore. 450 00:26:46,479 --> 00:26:47,772 Why do you think that is? 451 00:26:48,189 --> 00:26:49,941 It started when I was arrested. 452 00:26:51,318 --> 00:26:54,529 When they moved me from the sheriff's station to the county jail. 453 00:26:55,155 --> 00:26:59,117 They had me in handcuffs and leg irons, and they shut me in the back of the van. 454 00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:00,869 No windows, no air, just dark. 455 00:27:02,537 --> 00:27:04,039 Must have been terrifying. 456 00:27:06,291 --> 00:27:09,794 And you felt confined today, at the hospital? 457 00:27:10,295 --> 00:27:11,713 I just... I had to get out. 458 00:27:12,213 --> 00:27:13,506 Get away. I... 459 00:27:13,590 --> 00:27:15,717 From people who were trying to help you? 460 00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:17,427 I... I just felt afraid. 461 00:27:19,638 --> 00:27:23,933 I've felt so afraid of so many things for so long. 462 00:27:26,186 --> 00:27:29,481 I mean, I don't even think I can ever remember not being afraid. 463 00:27:29,564 --> 00:27:30,398 [Ellman] Try. 464 00:27:30,774 --> 00:27:32,150 Try to tell me... 465 00:27:33,735 --> 00:27:35,487 about a time you felt safe. 466 00:27:35,904 --> 00:27:36,988 Taken care of. 467 00:27:37,072 --> 00:27:38,114 [slaps thighs] I... 468 00:27:39,199 --> 00:27:41,076 I don't know. I don't know. 469 00:27:41,159 --> 00:27:43,203 Go as far back as you need to. 470 00:27:59,219 --> 00:28:01,388 I remember this time I was, like, 471 00:28:02,472 --> 00:28:04,683 seven, I think, or eight. 472 00:28:06,601 --> 00:28:09,354 [clicks tongue] And I had this crazy fever, 473 00:28:10,355 --> 00:28:12,273 like things didn't feel real. 474 00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:15,777 And my dad stayed home and took care of me. 475 00:28:17,153 --> 00:28:21,616 And I slept on the couch with our dog, um... 476 00:28:22,659 --> 00:28:23,785 who was, like... 477 00:28:25,453 --> 00:28:27,414 It was like she was guarding me. 478 00:28:29,541 --> 00:28:31,334 And I remember waking up 479 00:28:31,418 --> 00:28:33,962 and my dad was sitting there, 480 00:28:35,004 --> 00:28:35,880 just... 481 00:28:38,299 --> 00:28:41,302 sort of stroking the hair on my head. 482 00:28:44,764 --> 00:28:45,640 [clicks tongue] 483 00:28:46,099 --> 00:28:47,100 And... 484 00:28:49,018 --> 00:28:50,854 he looked so worried, but I... 485 00:28:53,231 --> 00:28:54,482 I didn't feel worried. 486 00:28:57,610 --> 00:28:59,112 I just felt glad he was there. 487 00:29:01,781 --> 00:29:03,616 Why do you think your parents worry? 488 00:29:06,703 --> 00:29:09,205 I don't... I don't want them to. 489 00:29:09,998 --> 00:29:11,624 But why do you think they do? 490 00:29:12,542 --> 00:29:13,543 Because of... 491 00:29:14,919 --> 00:29:16,880 everything I do. Because of the... 492 00:29:17,714 --> 00:29:20,300 the trouble I've caused. Because I'm not right, I mean... 493 00:29:20,717 --> 00:29:23,428 Do you think if you were perfect, they'd never worry... 494 00:29:25,346 --> 00:29:29,058 about where you were, what you were doing, if you were healthy? 495 00:29:30,268 --> 00:29:31,811 Happy? Safe? 496 00:29:35,565 --> 00:29:36,816 I guess they would. 497 00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:38,526 Then when they do, 498 00:29:39,027 --> 00:29:41,070 can you try to remember that feeling 499 00:29:41,154 --> 00:29:42,781 of being glad they're there? 500 00:29:44,365 --> 00:29:45,658 I can try. Yeah. 501 00:29:46,576 --> 00:29:47,952 Then perhaps... 502 00:29:48,995 --> 00:29:52,916 you can start to believe that there are people in your life... 503 00:29:54,834 --> 00:29:56,377 that wanna take care of you. 504 00:29:57,879 --> 00:29:59,923 That want you to do well. 505 00:30:03,176 --> 00:30:06,638 Parents, teachers, doctors. 506 00:30:08,890 --> 00:30:10,642 Even college interviewers. 507 00:30:13,436 --> 00:30:14,437 I can try. 508 00:30:20,401 --> 00:30:22,362 Sweetheart. [relieved sigh] 509 00:30:23,655 --> 00:30:25,824 [Lainie sniffles] 510 00:30:25,907 --> 00:30:27,867 [Ellman] I've spoken with Sheriff Diaz, 511 00:30:27,951 --> 00:30:30,078 and I don't think Clay is at risk of self-harm. 512 00:30:30,161 --> 00:30:31,412 He can go home. 513 00:30:32,163 --> 00:30:35,917 He and I have decided it's best I see him twice a week 514 00:30:36,793 --> 00:30:37,877 for the next while. 515 00:30:38,253 --> 00:30:39,087 Thank you. 516 00:30:40,755 --> 00:30:43,842 Do you want to sleep in the house tonight instead of out back? 517 00:30:45,510 --> 00:30:46,803 Is Justin home? 518 00:30:46,886 --> 00:30:47,720 Yeah. 519 00:30:49,430 --> 00:30:50,431 Then I'll be fine. 520 00:30:51,933 --> 00:30:52,767 OK. 521 00:30:58,690 --> 00:31:01,192 [Lainie breathes deeply, chuckles] OK. 522 00:31:07,282 --> 00:31:09,033 [suspenseful music plays] 523 00:31:26,050 --> 00:31:28,052 [suspenseful music intensifies] 524 00:31:30,847 --> 00:31:31,931 [Clay gasps] 525 00:31:40,189 --> 00:31:43,568 [woman] They say that resiliency is the truest predictor of success. 526 00:31:47,405 --> 00:31:48,740 Do they say that? 527 00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:50,158 Mm-hmm. 528 00:31:52,243 --> 00:31:53,077 Huh. 529 00:31:55,997 --> 00:32:01,586 But isn't resiliency just one more way of saying that we should cope with things 530 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:03,713 rather than trying to change them? 531 00:32:04,797 --> 00:32:05,715 I, um... 532 00:32:05,798 --> 00:32:07,967 And what does real change look like? 533 00:32:15,892 --> 00:32:18,478 I, um... I had two friends. 534 00:32:19,771 --> 00:32:21,814 Two very different friends. 535 00:32:21,898 --> 00:32:24,150 Two people I love... 536 00:32:26,527 --> 00:32:27,904 who each had a moment... 537 00:32:29,364 --> 00:32:32,992 in their lives when they looked in their world 538 00:32:33,076 --> 00:32:36,120 and saw that nothing was ever gonna change. 539 00:32:37,372 --> 00:32:38,247 Ever. 540 00:32:39,415 --> 00:32:41,250 And they each made a decision... 541 00:32:42,710 --> 00:32:44,045 in that one moment. 542 00:32:45,630 --> 00:32:46,673 One... 543 00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:49,842 terrible, 544 00:32:51,594 --> 00:32:53,304 painful decision... 545 00:32:56,182 --> 00:32:58,267 that they could never take back. 546 00:33:05,775 --> 00:33:08,194 And that's what brought the change. 547 00:33:11,698 --> 00:33:12,740 Painful... 548 00:33:14,450 --> 00:33:15,451 awful... 549 00:33:16,285 --> 00:33:17,328 change. 550 00:33:19,038 --> 00:33:20,415 Change is never easy. 551 00:33:21,082 --> 00:33:22,208 [chuckles lightly] 552 00:33:23,418 --> 00:33:24,377 No. 553 00:33:25,753 --> 00:33:27,171 No, no, it isn't. 554 00:33:28,965 --> 00:33:30,216 Thank you for that. 555 00:33:36,431 --> 00:33:40,309 Um, I'm sorry to pull you out of class like this, buddy, but it's important. 556 00:33:40,393 --> 00:33:42,228 What is it? Is it Clay? 557 00:33:43,312 --> 00:33:45,231 Matt and Lainie gave him the day off. 558 00:33:45,314 --> 00:33:46,816 He... he's still recovering. 559 00:33:46,899 --> 00:33:48,985 Mm-hmm. No, it's not about Clay. 560 00:33:51,070 --> 00:33:52,196 [inhales slowly] 561 00:33:52,864 --> 00:33:54,073 It's about your mom. 562 00:33:55,992 --> 00:33:58,745 It, uh... it appears she passed away yesterday. 563 00:33:59,871 --> 00:34:01,456 We got the call this morning. 564 00:34:06,669 --> 00:34:07,670 She... 565 00:34:08,921 --> 00:34:09,756 what? 566 00:34:09,839 --> 00:34:12,175 Yeah, she was found by a patrol car. 567 00:34:12,884 --> 00:34:14,719 Routine sweep, down by the docks. 568 00:34:16,220 --> 00:34:18,014 -Seth? -No, he's still upstate. 569 00:34:18,097 --> 00:34:21,684 We checked with the Bureau of Prisons, and there's no sign of foul play. 570 00:34:24,312 --> 00:34:25,313 She OD'ed? 571 00:34:25,938 --> 00:34:27,523 There's some evidence for that, 572 00:34:28,733 --> 00:34:31,069 but we're waiting on a toxicology report. 573 00:34:35,073 --> 00:34:36,908 [inhales, exhales deeply] 574 00:34:37,325 --> 00:34:40,161 I know you two hadn't been in touch for quite some time. 575 00:34:44,665 --> 00:34:45,792 Yeah, um... 576 00:34:48,002 --> 00:34:48,878 we hadn't. 577 00:34:52,924 --> 00:34:54,509 So, so sorry, buddy. 578 00:34:57,637 --> 00:34:58,638 Thank you... 579 00:35:01,057 --> 00:35:02,517 for telling me. 580 00:35:04,685 --> 00:35:07,563 Do you want me to give you a ride home? To the Jensens? 581 00:35:11,234 --> 00:35:12,443 You should take the day off. 582 00:35:12,527 --> 00:35:14,862 I can talk to Principal Bolan, tell him what's going on. 583 00:35:14,946 --> 00:35:17,198 If it's all right, sir, 584 00:35:19,033 --> 00:35:20,785 I'd like to stay at school. 585 00:35:22,286 --> 00:35:23,121 I'm... 586 00:35:23,955 --> 00:35:26,415 trying to keep my attendance perfect. 587 00:35:27,625 --> 00:35:30,211 And I've got a college interview today. [chuckles] 588 00:35:31,462 --> 00:35:32,463 OK. 589 00:35:34,006 --> 00:35:35,591 -Here if you need, OK? -Mm. 590 00:35:57,196 --> 00:35:58,030 Alex? 591 00:36:02,618 --> 00:36:05,204 I'm sorry, I can't... I can't right now. 592 00:36:05,288 --> 00:36:07,039 Um... [scoffs] 593 00:36:07,123 --> 00:36:09,375 I don't... I don't deserve to go to college. 594 00:36:09,876 --> 00:36:12,044 Of course you deserve to go to college. 595 00:36:12,628 --> 00:36:15,089 Everyone does, no matter their disability. 596 00:36:23,848 --> 00:36:24,807 How'd it go? 597 00:36:24,891 --> 00:36:26,350 What are you even doing here? 598 00:36:26,434 --> 00:36:28,352 I wanted to see how it went. 599 00:36:28,436 --> 00:36:30,605 Oh, my God, you're like a fucking golden retriever. 600 00:36:30,688 --> 00:36:31,814 Don't you give up? 601 00:36:32,440 --> 00:36:34,275 No, I'm like, uh... Russell Wilson. 602 00:36:34,358 --> 00:36:36,819 Never giving up on a play, always scrambling. 603 00:36:36,903 --> 00:36:38,821 So, how'd it go? 604 00:36:38,905 --> 00:36:41,616 It sucked because I'm extremely fucked up, 605 00:36:41,699 --> 00:36:44,452 and if you weren't an idiot, you'd stay away. 606 00:36:49,957 --> 00:36:51,042 [exhales] 607 00:37:02,511 --> 00:37:04,263 [sighs deeply] 608 00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:09,435 [breathes heavily] 609 00:37:13,731 --> 00:37:14,732 [sniffs] 610 00:37:23,074 --> 00:37:24,367 [sobs quietly] 611 00:37:27,119 --> 00:37:30,248 If, uh, I were to ask one of your friends, 612 00:37:30,331 --> 00:37:33,251 what would they say is your greatest strength? 613 00:37:34,669 --> 00:37:37,171 I... I suppose they'd say I'm... 614 00:37:38,673 --> 00:37:39,924 very dedicated. 615 00:37:40,508 --> 00:37:41,342 Um... 616 00:37:41,634 --> 00:37:42,551 Loyal. 617 00:37:44,220 --> 00:37:47,765 I'm not... I'm not someone who gives up on other people very easily. 618 00:37:47,932 --> 00:37:49,767 [chuckles] Hm. 619 00:37:51,852 --> 00:37:52,895 [sighs] 620 00:37:55,231 --> 00:37:57,191 Actually, um, sorry. 621 00:37:57,275 --> 00:37:58,317 Um... Uh... 622 00:37:58,401 --> 00:38:00,069 That's not what they would say... 623 00:38:00,653 --> 00:38:01,988 at all. [chuckles lightly] 624 00:38:02,655 --> 00:38:04,156 [recruiter] What do you mean? 625 00:38:05,992 --> 00:38:06,993 The truth is... 626 00:38:09,245 --> 00:38:12,665 I don't think my friends would have... 627 00:38:13,833 --> 00:38:15,960 any idea how to describe me. 628 00:38:19,505 --> 00:38:23,217 When they... when they look at me, they only see what I want them to see. 629 00:38:23,718 --> 00:38:26,512 Just like you're only seeing what I want you to see, 630 00:38:27,096 --> 00:38:30,308 which, frankly, isn't the real me at all. 631 00:38:30,933 --> 00:38:32,768 Then who are you? 632 00:38:39,066 --> 00:38:40,151 [sadly] I don't know. 633 00:38:44,739 --> 00:38:48,951 You think Tyler's making a buy and they're going to take him down? 634 00:38:49,035 --> 00:38:51,871 They set him a trap. Tomorrow night. 635 00:38:51,954 --> 00:38:55,416 And we've gotta stop him somehow, but I can't get ahold of him, 636 00:38:55,499 --> 00:38:57,501 and he's nowhere to be found, so... 637 00:38:57,585 --> 00:39:01,922 I'm not in any shape to help anyone right now. 638 00:39:02,006 --> 00:39:03,591 [Tony] What does that mean? 639 00:39:04,216 --> 00:39:05,676 Clay, what does that mean? 640 00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,179 I don't... I don't understand what's happening. 641 00:39:08,262 --> 00:39:11,349 I'm, like... I'm grounded forever. I... 642 00:39:13,517 --> 00:39:15,895 Clay, this is everything. This is everything! 643 00:39:15,978 --> 00:39:17,772 If they take him down, we're done. 644 00:39:18,189 --> 00:39:19,106 It's over. 645 00:39:19,190 --> 00:39:21,108 I feel like it's over already. 646 00:39:22,318 --> 00:39:23,861 What's going on? 647 00:39:25,571 --> 00:39:26,405 This isn't you. 648 00:39:27,198 --> 00:39:28,115 No, I... 649 00:39:30,993 --> 00:39:31,952 I know. 650 00:39:32,036 --> 00:39:33,704 [tense music plays] 651 00:39:49,929 --> 00:39:51,639 [door opens, slams closed] 652 00:39:53,557 --> 00:39:54,683 Sorry, my... 653 00:39:56,977 --> 00:39:58,521 my circumstances? 654 00:39:58,604 --> 00:40:00,439 Your essay indicated 655 00:40:00,523 --> 00:40:04,068 that you've faced down a number of personal challenges. 656 00:40:04,151 --> 00:40:05,361 Talk to me about that. 657 00:40:08,823 --> 00:40:10,866 I was addicted to heroin. 658 00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:12,159 Mm. 659 00:40:12,576 --> 00:40:13,577 [Justin] And... 660 00:40:15,663 --> 00:40:17,665 I had sex with men for money. 661 00:40:18,791 --> 00:40:20,167 [chuckles awkwardly] Uh... 662 00:40:20,876 --> 00:40:23,546 Your mother has also struggled with addiction? 663 00:40:26,924 --> 00:40:27,925 She, um... 664 00:40:33,013 --> 00:40:34,265 Yeah, she has. 665 00:40:36,392 --> 00:40:39,645 You have shown such fortitude. 666 00:40:39,728 --> 00:40:41,730 That will serve you well in college. 667 00:40:41,814 --> 00:40:43,774 Or did I just get really lucky? 668 00:40:47,361 --> 00:40:49,113 That I got out?  [exhales heavily] 669 00:40:50,197 --> 00:40:51,323 She never did. 670 00:40:53,868 --> 00:40:56,454 No one ever gave her a fucking chance. [chuckles sadly] 671 00:40:58,706 --> 00:41:00,791 Maybe "fortitude..." 672 00:41:02,501 --> 00:41:05,296 has fuck-all to do with it, and... [clicks tongue] 673 00:41:05,921 --> 00:41:09,300 ...it really is all about circumstances. 674 00:41:10,342 --> 00:41:12,803 I... I'm... I'm sorry. 675 00:41:13,262 --> 00:41:16,015 I didn't mean to be insensitive. 676 00:41:17,308 --> 00:41:21,520 We are all just so inspired by you. 677 00:41:31,614 --> 00:41:32,990 [Alex] How did you find me? 678 00:41:33,782 --> 00:41:34,783 [Charlie] Your mom. 679 00:41:35,618 --> 00:41:38,204 Don't worry, I told her it was about homework. 680 00:41:38,621 --> 00:41:41,123 Not the fact that you like boys, 681 00:41:41,207 --> 00:41:44,710 at least sometimes, and you're also breaking my heart. 682 00:41:45,169 --> 00:41:46,587 I'm not breaking your heart. 683 00:41:47,630 --> 00:41:48,714 You definitely are. 684 00:41:49,757 --> 00:41:50,674 Why? 685 00:41:52,384 --> 00:41:54,553 Why would you like someone like me? 686 00:41:55,179 --> 00:41:58,641 See, there you go doing that self-depreciating thing. 687 00:41:58,724 --> 00:42:00,017 It's "deprecating." 688 00:42:01,268 --> 00:42:04,772 You do... that self-deprecating thing 689 00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:06,440 where you think it's about you. 690 00:42:06,524 --> 00:42:10,152 But what you're saying is I'm dumb for liking you. 691 00:42:10,236 --> 00:42:12,613 You're, like, questioning my taste. 692 00:42:12,696 --> 00:42:15,074 And the thing is, I have excellent taste. 693 00:42:15,574 --> 00:42:16,909 You're very confident. 694 00:42:17,451 --> 00:42:18,536 I am very confident. 695 00:42:18,619 --> 00:42:20,996 You know, most people find that attractive. 696 00:42:21,080 --> 00:42:23,249 I'm suspicious of confident people. 697 00:42:26,043 --> 00:42:26,919 OK. 698 00:42:30,130 --> 00:42:30,965 OK. 699 00:42:31,674 --> 00:42:36,136 Well, I'm confident enough to be OK with that. 700 00:42:37,596 --> 00:42:40,599 Well, I'm not confident, OK? I never have been. 701 00:42:40,683 --> 00:42:42,017 And I have a brain injury, 702 00:42:42,101 --> 00:42:46,146 and I've done these terrible things that I'm never gonna get away from. 703 00:42:46,230 --> 00:42:47,898 I'm not a good person. 704 00:42:49,191 --> 00:42:52,528 And you have this, like, king-of-the-world jock thing, 705 00:42:52,611 --> 00:42:55,864 so I'm never gonna win an argument about why we shouldn't be together. 706 00:42:55,948 --> 00:42:58,117 You're gonna have to just take my word for it. 707 00:42:59,868 --> 00:43:00,869 [sighs] 708 00:43:01,996 --> 00:43:03,330 I'm gonna walk away now. 709 00:43:03,414 --> 00:43:04,707 Please don't follow me. 710 00:43:07,668 --> 00:43:10,254 Your essay about robotics... [chuckles] 711 00:43:10,963 --> 00:43:12,923 ...is a beautiful use of metaphor. 712 00:43:13,507 --> 00:43:15,593 What do you like most about robots? 713 00:43:15,884 --> 00:43:16,844 Um... 714 00:43:18,554 --> 00:43:20,514 [clicks tongue] Uh... making them, 715 00:43:21,181 --> 00:43:22,182 the robots. 716 00:43:23,392 --> 00:43:24,310 [recruiter] OK. 717 00:43:25,394 --> 00:43:27,855 Been a good student throughout your entire career. 718 00:43:28,272 --> 00:43:29,231 What's your secret? 719 00:43:29,315 --> 00:43:31,567 I don't... I don't have a secret. 720 00:43:31,650 --> 00:43:34,820 I'm... I was just... I'm just smart. 721 00:43:35,988 --> 00:43:38,365 I know your grades dropped a bit the last semester. 722 00:43:38,449 --> 00:43:41,577 You explained your extraordinary circumstances in your application. 723 00:43:41,660 --> 00:43:43,746 What did that whole experience teach you? 724 00:43:44,830 --> 00:43:47,082 -I don't like enclosed spaces. -Ah. 725 00:43:48,334 --> 00:43:49,335 I see. 726 00:43:54,590 --> 00:43:57,176 -What's most important to you, Clay? -My friends. 727 00:44:03,140 --> 00:44:04,141 [clears throat] 728 00:44:05,267 --> 00:44:06,518 [stuttering] I've, uh... 729 00:44:07,102 --> 00:44:10,230 I've made a lot of mistakes, some bad choices, 730 00:44:10,689 --> 00:44:14,360 and I don't always... I don't always think things through. 731 00:44:15,986 --> 00:44:19,990 But I know that if a friend needs me, or is in danger, or anything, 732 00:44:20,908 --> 00:44:24,411 if there is anything I can do to help them, I will. 733 00:44:28,916 --> 00:44:29,792 Uh... 734 00:44:31,752 --> 00:44:33,087 I'm really... 735 00:44:34,338 --> 00:44:36,965 really trying to do the right thing. 736 00:44:40,594 --> 00:44:41,512 I am. 737 00:44:44,348 --> 00:44:46,642 Even when it's not clear what that is. 738 00:44:48,936 --> 00:44:52,523 'Cause I don't want to live my life based on someone else's idea of... 739 00:44:53,190 --> 00:44:55,693 what's right, or what's moral, or what's good. 740 00:44:55,776 --> 00:44:57,653 I want to figure it out for myself. 741 00:44:58,654 --> 00:45:00,572 Even if I make mistakes along the way. 742 00:45:04,868 --> 00:45:07,162 And the one thing I know... 743 00:45:09,164 --> 00:45:12,209 is it is never wrong to care about your friends. 744 00:45:16,547 --> 00:45:17,673 It's never wrong 745 00:45:18,590 --> 00:45:20,134 to be a human being 746 00:45:20,759 --> 00:45:23,220 and love someone as well as you can. 747 00:45:23,721 --> 00:45:24,596 And... 748 00:45:28,350 --> 00:45:29,268 Uh... 749 00:45:30,477 --> 00:45:31,478 Uh, yeah. 750 00:45:38,026 --> 00:45:41,405 Uh, I don't... I don't want Clay to know. 751 00:45:42,906 --> 00:45:43,824 Um... 752 00:45:43,907 --> 00:45:46,410 He needs to get better, and, um... 753 00:45:46,994 --> 00:45:48,203 [inhales sharply] 754 00:45:49,288 --> 00:45:52,458 I don't really want to be in the way of that. 755 00:45:53,208 --> 00:45:54,460 You could never. 756 00:45:57,755 --> 00:46:00,090 [Lainie] What would you like to do for a service? 757 00:46:03,177 --> 00:46:04,178 A service? 758 00:46:04,970 --> 00:46:06,096 Yeah, a funeral. 759 00:46:06,513 --> 00:46:07,389 A memorial? 760 00:46:10,184 --> 00:46:11,185 I don't... 761 00:46:11,894 --> 00:46:13,270 I don't want a service. 762 00:46:15,939 --> 00:46:18,233 She didn't have any family or friends, so... 763 00:46:18,776 --> 00:46:19,735 She had you. 764 00:46:20,819 --> 00:46:22,780 She didn't, really. 765 00:46:23,655 --> 00:46:25,491 Maybe we take a day... [sniffles] 766 00:46:25,574 --> 00:46:26,575 ...as a family. 767 00:46:27,493 --> 00:46:29,244 We could scatter her ashes in the river. 768 00:46:29,328 --> 00:46:31,455 [yells] I don't fucking want anything! OK? 769 00:46:33,582 --> 00:46:34,750 [laughs sadly] 770 00:46:35,876 --> 00:46:37,961 I don't need some bullshit service 771 00:46:38,045 --> 00:46:41,465 so that you all can feel better about some broke junkie being dead! 772 00:46:41,548 --> 00:46:42,466 Jesus! 773 00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:43,717 Fuck! 774 00:46:51,141 --> 00:46:52,017 Sorry. 775 00:46:53,644 --> 00:46:56,563 Uh, I just... I've been to enough funerals in my life. 776 00:46:56,647 --> 00:46:58,732 -[Matt] Of course. -[Lainie] Justin, love. 777 00:47:01,443 --> 00:47:02,611 What can we do? 778 00:47:03,821 --> 00:47:05,823 [mournful instrumental music plays] 779 00:47:07,741 --> 00:47:08,742 I'm good. 780 00:47:10,953 --> 00:47:12,287 Really. Really. Thank you. 781 00:47:13,914 --> 00:47:15,749 [door opens, closes] 782 00:47:17,626 --> 00:47:19,962 [mournful instrumental music continues] 783 00:48:28,572 --> 00:48:29,865 [sobs] 784 00:48:54,139 --> 00:48:56,558 I mean, the flowers were beautiful. 785 00:48:56,642 --> 00:48:57,559 Yeah. 786 00:48:58,894 --> 00:49:03,357 -It was so kind of you to think of us. -Oh, you both were so kind to me. 787 00:49:03,774 --> 00:49:05,317 How's your mother doing now? 788 00:49:05,400 --> 00:49:07,486 Yeah, she's much better. 789 00:49:09,237 --> 00:49:12,074 -And how are you holding up? -Yeah, just fine. 790 00:49:12,658 --> 00:49:13,492 Yeah. 791 00:49:13,951 --> 00:49:14,868 Thank you. 792 00:49:18,205 --> 00:49:19,790 [Nora] Oh, honey. 793 00:49:19,873 --> 00:49:21,583 [sobs] Sorry. 794 00:49:22,918 --> 00:49:24,086 No, no, 795 00:49:24,586 --> 00:49:25,754 don't be sorry. 796 00:49:27,214 --> 00:49:30,717 I've been trying to be the thing that I thought people needed me to be. 797 00:49:31,885 --> 00:49:32,844 But I... 798 00:49:34,554 --> 00:49:36,390 I don't know if I know what that is. 799 00:49:37,516 --> 00:49:39,309 All I know is that I've failed. 800 00:49:39,393 --> 00:49:41,812 No! No, you haven't. 801 00:49:42,604 --> 00:49:45,315 [sighs] You've done beautifully well. 802 00:49:46,608 --> 00:49:49,987 And you need to remember you're still a teenager. 803 00:49:50,612 --> 00:49:53,907 You're still figuring out who you are. 804 00:49:53,991 --> 00:49:55,951 But you haven't failed anyone. 805 00:49:57,285 --> 00:49:58,829 You know, Ani, I, uh... 806 00:50:00,330 --> 00:50:02,249 I always imagined I'd be... 807 00:50:03,041 --> 00:50:07,462 getting Bryce ready to go off to college right about now. 808 00:50:08,714 --> 00:50:10,340 His father and I, um... 809 00:50:11,008 --> 00:50:13,385 put away some money for his college fund. 810 00:50:14,845 --> 00:50:16,888 And now, well... [sighs sadly] 811 00:50:18,348 --> 00:50:22,769 ...as you get ready to go off to Yale or Stanford 812 00:50:22,853 --> 00:50:24,563 or wherever you choose, 813 00:50:29,192 --> 00:50:31,778 I wonder if you could help me put it to good use. 814 00:50:36,658 --> 00:50:38,035 Mrs. Walker, uh... 815 00:50:38,577 --> 00:50:39,661 I... I couldn't... 816 00:50:39,745 --> 00:50:41,288 I couldn't take Bryce's money. 817 00:50:42,164 --> 00:50:45,500 Besides, I don't even know if I'm getting into college after today. 818 00:50:46,668 --> 00:50:49,838 Ani, they'd be out of their minds not to accept you. 819 00:50:58,972 --> 00:51:02,017 And I think you saw something in my son that I... 820 00:51:02,893 --> 00:51:04,394 even I couldn't always see. 821 00:51:06,605 --> 00:51:08,523 I just tried to be there for him... 822 00:51:09,316 --> 00:51:10,734 when he needed a friend. 823 00:51:11,485 --> 00:51:13,570 And now I'd like to do the same for you. 824 00:51:15,238 --> 00:51:16,490 You deserve 825 00:51:17,282 --> 00:51:21,286 to be able to build the kind of future you want for yourself, 826 00:51:22,287 --> 00:51:23,663 whatever that may be. 827 00:51:29,628 --> 00:51:31,171 [tapping phone keys] 828 00:51:34,049 --> 00:51:35,759 [indistinct muttering] 829 00:51:39,679 --> 00:51:41,598 You've made the right choice, Dempsey. 830 00:51:43,183 --> 00:51:45,685 I mean, that is why we're here, right? 831 00:51:47,562 --> 00:51:48,563 Oh, yeah. 832 00:51:49,773 --> 00:51:52,943 I'm here to cleanse my soul. 833 00:51:54,444 --> 00:51:55,278 [Diego] Good. 834 00:51:56,488 --> 00:51:57,531 Then let's hear it. 835 00:52:06,331 --> 00:52:07,332 Come on. 836 00:52:07,415 --> 00:52:08,667 I'm not gonna bite you. 837 00:52:08,750 --> 00:52:09,668 OK. 838 00:52:10,710 --> 00:52:11,878 [Zach sighs heavily] 839 00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:18,426 Fuck... 840 00:52:18,885 --> 00:52:19,761 you. 841 00:52:21,054 --> 00:52:22,180 [snickers] 842 00:52:24,349 --> 00:52:27,102 Seriously? You hauled us out here to be a tough guy? 843 00:52:27,185 --> 00:52:28,562 Oh, yeah. Yes, I did. 844 00:52:29,354 --> 00:52:32,315 I invited all of you out here so that I could tell you all, 845 00:52:32,983 --> 00:52:34,067 in person, 846 00:52:34,734 --> 00:52:37,237 with all of my best wishes, 847 00:52:37,320 --> 00:52:41,199 to suck my giant dick. 848 00:52:41,908 --> 00:52:43,660 [chuckles] 849 00:52:46,121 --> 00:52:48,081 Aw! [chuckles] 850 00:52:49,166 --> 00:52:51,084 -[Zach groans] -Jesus, Diego! 851 00:52:51,168 --> 00:52:52,252 How about that, huh? 852 00:52:52,335 --> 00:52:54,296 -That help your memory? -You know what? Yeah. 853 00:52:54,379 --> 00:52:55,714 No, that helped. Thank you. 854 00:52:55,797 --> 00:52:58,258 I think... I think I remembered something. [sniffs] 855 00:53:00,093 --> 00:53:02,679 I remember that you're a fucking pussy. [chuckles] 856 00:53:03,138 --> 00:53:04,055 Motherfucker. 857 00:53:04,139 --> 00:53:05,557 -[grunting] -[groaning] 858 00:53:09,686 --> 00:53:11,938 [Zach] It's... OK, OK, OK! All right. 859 00:53:12,606 --> 00:53:14,232 [groans, breathes heavily] 860 00:53:15,317 --> 00:53:16,735 I'll tell you who did it. 861 00:53:19,446 --> 00:53:20,697 It was me. 862 00:53:23,283 --> 00:53:24,117 [spits] 863 00:53:24,618 --> 00:53:25,911 It was me all along! 864 00:53:25,994 --> 00:53:27,454 [laughs] Woohoo-- 865 00:53:27,537 --> 00:53:29,956 [laughs hysterically, groans] 866 00:53:35,545 --> 00:53:36,463 Harder. 867 00:53:37,172 --> 00:53:38,256 Pussy! 868 00:53:39,507 --> 00:53:40,675 [shouts] Hit me harder! 869 00:53:45,972 --> 00:53:47,390 [Luke] Jesus, Diego, enough! 870 00:53:50,101 --> 00:53:51,269 [growls] 871 00:53:51,353 --> 00:53:52,771 [groans, pants] 872 00:53:54,564 --> 00:53:57,025 -[Luke] Let's get outta here. -You're fucking crazy, you know? 873 00:53:57,442 --> 00:54:00,904 You belong in a mental hospital next to your boy Jensen, you sick fuck! 874 00:54:01,112 --> 00:54:03,198 [breathes heavily] 875 00:54:03,281 --> 00:54:04,866 [Zach] Aw, come on! 876 00:54:04,950 --> 00:54:06,910 [sniffs] Let's fucking go. 877 00:54:07,535 --> 00:54:09,663 [breathes heavily, groans] 878 00:54:09,746 --> 00:54:10,789 Is that all you got? 879 00:54:11,665 --> 00:54:13,208 [footsteps receding] 880 00:54:15,669 --> 00:54:17,003 [tense music plays] 881 00:54:20,924 --> 00:54:21,967 [sighs] 882 00:54:23,301 --> 00:54:25,011 What the fuck? 883 00:54:26,513 --> 00:54:27,472 Hey. 884 00:54:29,057 --> 00:54:29,975 You came. 885 00:54:31,184 --> 00:54:33,228 Of course, you needed me. Why wouldn't I? 886 00:54:33,770 --> 00:54:35,397 -I... -[chuckles] 887 00:54:35,480 --> 00:54:37,190 Hey, how long have you been here? 888 00:54:38,608 --> 00:54:39,609 About two hours. 889 00:54:40,068 --> 00:54:43,738 No Tyler, no cops, so maybe they called the whole thing off. 890 00:54:46,241 --> 00:54:47,117 Wait. 891 00:54:48,576 --> 00:54:49,577 There. 892 00:55:01,840 --> 00:55:03,216 Go. Let's go. 893 00:55:10,598 --> 00:55:12,017 [Clay] Hey, Tyler, wait up! 894 00:55:13,643 --> 00:55:15,520 -What are you doing? -You gotta come with us! 895 00:55:15,603 --> 00:55:16,438 What the fuck? 896 00:55:16,521 --> 00:55:18,523 Whatever you guys are doing, you need to stop! 897 00:55:18,606 --> 00:55:20,525 -Who the fuck are these clowns? -No one. 898 00:55:20,608 --> 00:55:22,152 Just get the fuck out of here! 899 00:55:22,235 --> 00:55:24,738 -You gotta come with us. Tyler! -Fuck this, I'm out. 900 00:55:24,821 --> 00:55:26,573 -[sirens approaching] -Shit! 901 00:55:26,656 --> 00:55:27,782 -Oh, my God. -Oh, no. 902 00:55:29,576 --> 00:55:31,202 -Shit! -Police! Stay where you are! 903 00:55:31,286 --> 00:55:32,871 Lower the gun! 904 00:55:32,954 --> 00:55:34,664 -Lower the gun, right now! -Shut the fuck up. 905 00:55:34,748 --> 00:55:36,624 -Put it down now! -Put the gun down! 906 00:55:36,708 --> 00:55:37,959 -Put down your weapon! -Fuck off! 907 00:55:38,043 --> 00:55:39,169 [gunshot] 908 00:55:42,213 --> 00:55:43,840 [ominous music plays] 909 00:55:53,850 --> 00:55:57,771 [Tyler reads text] 910 00:57:52,343 --> 00:57:54,304 [man] Well done, Ed. Well done.